I know nobody reads my blogs but that won't stop me from writing blogs cause lets be real here, ain't nobody got time to write blogs just to impress people. I often tell myself; "no one's reading your blog anyways. Just imagine you writing your blog equals to you telling yourself shiz." 

It's already the 2nd of January. Damn, I barely did much on the 1st. 

Alright, 2016 was a hell of a crazy year for me. If I were to compare it with 2015, I'd say, 2015 was a rollercoaster and 2016 was the whole effing amusement park. 

Not gonna lie, I cried more in 2015 than 2016 cause something happened. 

In 2016? Well... the first half was not gonna lie, it was indeed WONDERFUL. I was happy. I was thankful. I felt blessed with everything. 

But the second half was just... sigh. 

Okay, when someone asks me how would I describe my 2016, I'd say its the year of losses. 

I lost my 3 greatest friends and my grandmother. I might exaggerate on the 3 friends parts but really, I lost them. Okay, they are cats but still, pets are still living things and I was so attached to them. Back in October 2015, I was so depressed but my cats were always there to cheer me up and up til January 2016, my cats would always be my happy vitamin whenever I get stressed out especially when I got back home from school. 

July happened and I lost them one by one(it all happened in a week and it was painful.) I cried a lot and I had a hard time accepting the fact that I lost my precious cuddling buddies but then my other cat(named Batman) soon became my new cuddling buddy and he would always be there to comfort me so I was indeed grateful. 

2016 was also a big year for me because of my college entrance exam. We call it O levels here. In the UK it's called GCSE. Anywho, it wasn't the easiest exam. You'd think it's easy to pass all subjects BUT IT IS NOT! Heck, I could barely do well for my mother tongue language subject! but I'm glad it's over now. 

I guess the most painful part for me was my grandmother's passing. She passed away a week before my O level exam. We were all in the hall because the teachers had to give us a briefing about the exam and we also had to arrange our seats for the exam. I was with my friends getting the chairs from the stack but then my teacher called me and I saw my mum and before my mum even said anything, I already cried cause the night before my parents went to the hospital to visit my grandmother but I couldn't go cause I had to revise for the exams. 

I cried so hard in the hall while hugging my mum. I had to go out of the hall fast cause I didn't want anyone to see me cry. It was indeed an emotional day for me. 

My grandmother was the sweetest grandmother ever. She cared for me so so much. I remember always visiting her and listening to her stories when she was young. I even remember this story she told me about how back in her times, people only pay 10 cents to watch the movies and they all sat on the floor, crowding. Ahh.. good times. 

I always go to her house after I get back from religious school since it's literally in front of my school and she would always be there to accompany me eat. 

I still have pics of her from 2016 during her birthday. Who knew that that would be our last birthday that we could spend with her? 

2016 had been a very memorable year for me too because I decided to stan a new group. I know you might think I'm making a big deal out of this but for me, it IS a big deal. Back in 2011/2012 I was a hardcore Shawol and Kiss Me but then I discovered EXO so I focused more on EXO but of course, I still check on SHINee and U-KISS updates every now and then. 

I was so focused on EXO like I dedicated everything for them up til 2015. Somehow something happened(yeah, it's the members leaving thing) but that didn't stop me from loving EXO. 

It wasn't until 2016 that I realised how I wasn't that enthusiastic anymore when I see EXO updates. Like, they used to make me smile but now anymore. I didn't know the real reason why. 

Alright so cotinuing about the new group thing. It's ASTRO. I didn't pay attention to them back in 2015 when they had to do their webdrama "To Be Continued" and when I heard that they were debuting with "Hide & Seek". I couldn't care at all and boyyyy, I regretted that. I watched them on weekly idol and they were indeed adorable. 

I binge watched all their videos until 6AM! How crazy is that? I also looked up KNK cause I swear, they are ALWAYS with Astro and I love seeing KNK and Astro together. 

Anywho, I started to discover more about Astro and BAM! I fell for them. I really did fall hard for them. I truly have never loved a group like this. 

Not only do I love Astro, but their company is also a good company. I've read tweets about Fantagio Music and I am so glad Astro is under them. 

2016 also taught me to appreciate people and to not judge anyone by their looks. Seriously, just because someone looks mean/cold, that doesn't mean they ARE mean/cold. I also realised how sometimes, the people who you think would be there for you sometimes won't even bother caring about you at all. And sometimes, you just HAVE to leave/erase someone from your life cause hell, people can be very toxic. 

I learned to be careful when choosing friends. Ditch the foes. 

I pray that 2017 would be a good year for me. Here's to a lovely 2017! Happy new year everyone! ^^