Last dance
I'm literally crying now.
Okay. I was just holding my tears since i do not understand the lyrics but when top's last part where he raps then there's a background of crowd in the concert, I finally lost everything. I bawled like a child. I know it sounds odd. "Last dance" the title itself seems like a sign. Idk. But all of the scenes, theater with papers flying as if the end, departure where panda is, the people wandering around (seems like vips going on and figuring their own lives as bigbang goes or vips leaving with all the bumping with them as if they are not worthy anymore), the girl as vips staying until the end, then finally top in military suit and half crying half smiling like wtf have you done to our hearts? I'm dead crying. When I saw the lyrics? Oh my God. :( I don't know that I will get sadder.
All the memories came back when I met bigbang way back 2012. Hated kpop back then, my roommate watching running man and laughing like crazy. Then I ended up watching a bigbang episode and maniacally laughing as well. Then started listening to their songs without knowing I'll be a huge fan especially as I've said I hated kpop before. Bigbang turned my life upside down. It was alive era.
Never in my life I imagine I'll be loving a person or a group of people who doesn't even know me. My sister is a bieber fan back then (before she became a kpop fan too), I'm always wondering wtf is wrong with her? Like crying over a person from the other side of the world, listening to a song for a hundred times a day, collecting overpriced cds and merchandise, buying all magazines and whatnots.
I finally understand that it is possible to love a person or a group of people, not because you want to be loved back but because you feel loved just by listening to their songs, you feel happy watching their variety shows or even just their everyday lives. And seeing them twice in concert was the best thing that I'll cherish forever. I remember, i was so depressed for some reason and bigbang is the one who saved me from my depression. Feels like they're a different version of drugs that can make me feel like I'm not alone.
In this cruel world, we need someone or something to hold on to for us to tell ourselves that everything will be okay. And Bigbang saved me.
I seriously wish them to be happy whenever and wherever. Even if I turn 50, 60 or even 100. I'll always look back in my younger years and smile like an idiot.
Thank you Bigbang! Thank you JI TABI TAE DAE and Ri. You guys don't know how much you mean to me and to the rest of VIPs.
We will always be here. Good luck in enlistment. We'll wait for you! Don't disband okay? We love you!
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