Sometime, should I say, everytime, when my mom tells me that she is grateful that every morning, when she opens her eyes, she feels grateful that her eyes still can see well, her ears are still functioning, everything is still working though not that well compared to her younger days, I feel that she is nagging. But, I'll say too that I'm grateful as well for living till this very second because we'll never know when our last second will arrive (I've escaped death twice so I know).

Today, a friend of mine gets admitted to the hospital and will have operation on this Friday. After many scans, doctor has found a growth or something like mini tumor in her ovary. And another shocking truth I got to know today is that another friend of mine, had experinced it and that she had operations to removed BOTH her ovaries!!!

I mean, the moment I heard it, I don't know how I should react to her. I mean, plain 'sorry to hear that is' too lame. I feel her pain. We are women. She is at the age of getting married and she too has her choice of partner readied. But now, her wish to have a baby is gone forever. She cried over the phone but I really can't do anything to help her except telling her that I'm there for her if she need anything. 

I'm sad, terribly sad. They may not be my best friend, as I have come to figure out that there is actually none in my friend list that someone hold the position 'Best Friend', but seeing them suffering like this, I feel hurt, a lot to be precise!

Now, I really don't know what to do except offering my prayers to all of them. All I want to tell them that I care and love them. I treasure them though they may not do the same to me. I really want them to be happy and well healthy and fighting. I really want, not wish.