omo, life is so cruel.

At school today, I think I was being bullied, which I never thought would happen.

but yeah... 

so what happened, basically was that these two girls came up to me and like... Told me I dropped something.

Next thing you know, they like... smuched (yes thats a word) like... something sticky onto my face.

I got annoyed, like seriously, and then they like... walked away laughing.

I know, what a stupid thing to say, because like... that's BARELY anything.

But, my mom told my dad about what happened, and he like... became really serious.... and it was wierd. I got like...  inspired by his speech that "all people are equal no matter what race, gender or nationality. How we're all equal and shiz." It made me tear up, and he asked me why, and if this happened at any other times, but I was like "No." 

Now, I'm worried, he told me to tell someone (my form tutor) about this. And, since I wasn't the only one that was there (my umma/unnie -- umaunnie -- was there with me) he told me that she could back me up with the... cruelness of the people. But yeah...

What if this will lead on to something really big, and ... I really don't want to get involved in these things. This is why I'm mainly quiet in school. To just stay away from teh chaos and live my life normally without any trouble. But because of today's incident, it might just have to change. 

Now, I'm just wondering. What should I do? I'd understand if they knew me, and were just playing around, but... they barely knew me. They just ran up to me and did their nasty thing ¬.¬. And, as they were walking away, I heard one girl say "Everyone's fallen for it." So, lots of people have been affected by their silly games. 

They're a year older than me, but that doesn't give them the right to bully other people right? Yes, you may think its nothing serious, but what they were trying to do was put something on my face, nearly pushing my eyeballs out of my socket. I had a headache throughout the whole lesson because of my aching eye. And hurt heart that someone was actually being mean to me. I didn't want to have to deal with this sort of stress. I wanted to come out of school saying that "I'd never been bullied." But thanks to these  es, asses. arghs!! I meant to say 'rude girls' XD - I can't do that anymore. Curse you for doing that!

I know, you may be thinking, such a small matter, why can't this sissy of a girl take this and just ignore it? Well I'm sorry I'm only 13 however you're wrong. I'm not strong. I can't defend myself, I cry easily. I just wish, that this incident never HAPPENED IN THE FIRST PLACE! LIFE IS SO CONFUSING ENOUGH! I JUST HAD TO THINK OF WHAT OPTIONS TO HAVE FOR GSCE (KINDA LIKE... BIG EXAMS) AND THEN I GET THIS THING HAPPEN TO ME? It is NOT on you hear me?!

wow, I never knew I could write that much. ^^;; Deep inside right now though, I'm feeling scared of whats going to happen tomorrow. When I tell my teacher tomorrow will she think, 'Wow, Stephie, you're such a sissy, going to me to talk about these things' or will she be serious and try and take action by taking me to the Head of Year?! I really don't want both of these outcomes. In truth, I don't want to say anything at all, but... My dad told me that I have to tell someone. If they're just targetting people like me (A.K.A - not British ¬.¬) then this has to stop so that no one else will get hurt, so I get his reason for this. But still!! I'm scared TT.TT.

water_lilly //  a trouble Stephie