MY LIFE.

So I am sick nearly all the time and anxiety and stress don’t mix well so I am a mess. This means I have been missing classes etc every week – I miss a class week at this rate and in the past two weeks I have had two days off which has six classes between the two and today I ended up getting sent home after vomiting during class (I walked out of class to throw up).

Now my photography teacher is one of those teachers that will get on you for your attendance I just so happened to login to my college account as I was doing my university application- and guess who wrote a little message….my photography teacher…now I know she is only looking out for me and all but when you are stuck with a tutor who actually hates you and loves to make you feel worthless then you will understand why I am not happy.

She posted into my college notes: “Bit concerned about Sophie and her recent attendance. Please would Tutor have a one to one and check if she is okay and coping. Thank you”           

Now I am glad that someone is concerned about me and all and this is unlike her to even talk to me or anything but the problem is I can’t talk to my tutor about my issues…there is no ing way I am telling her that I am going through serious self-worth issues and is having multiple breakdowns and is so stressed that I am sick. I will not talk to her. I can’t she makes me anxious as it is and what’s worse is that I have her tomorrow and I just know she’s going to make me stand outside and talk to her….

Someone just hug me please I don’t care anymore I am so done.