My other half app

Personality:A 19 year old girl who can be caring, wise, clumsy, sneaky, random, happy go lucky, and serious. She is a hard worker,who tries her best not to let anyone down, as she hated when that happen to her. She thinks of someone else before herself because she doesn't want to hurt anyone. She is not a judgmental person, as she was taught to never judge a person as a person could look like an angel but be an evil person or the other way around, she believes that a person should put 1000 percent into work

She is not a morning person. Her personality takes a 180 flip. She becomes more serious with everything and acts more colder. She doesn't act as mindful, so she tends to keep close more. She becomes more negative, until she wakes up fully.

Her personality changes when she is with a boy she like. She becomes more shy and more clumsy, gets jealous more easily too. She won't get upset with him and she becomes more carefree. And she can't stay mad at him, to other people who she can hold a grudge to days.

However her personality took a dramatic change, Her illness began to control her life as she began to shut out the world, she began to trust less, now she always frighten and scared, that something bad going to happen, she never talks to anyone unless it a whisper, she quiet and shy, she over polite, she doesn't go out much, as she completely afraid of the world completely as she has no trust in a soul, she wondered around lost in her thoughts hoping no one will notice her

Likes:

*Writing

*Sweets

*Cute things

*Dreams or dreaming

*Snow

*Classical music

*Infinite

*Plants

Dislikes: *Small places

*Liars

*erts

*People who use people

*Nightmares

*Thunderstorms

*bitter things

*Being called cute

*revealing clothes

Habits: *Looking down or not meeting someone eyes when talking to them *

Whispering when nervous or meeting someone

*Clinging to people she trust when frighten

*Hugging people during thuder storms

*sings when she lonely

Hobbies:

Playing Piano,

Painting,

composing songs,

Ballet,

Gardening

Trivia: (7+)

*Passed every year with A or higher

*Can play Piano, Clarinet and violin

*Allergic to orange juice

*Majors in English, Writing and Composing song

*Has a husky puppy named Yuki

*Favorite color is purple

*Addicted to hot choclate

*Performed alonside yuya during his debut stage in japan

Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend: ‘I’m Single

Bestfriend(s): Tiffany Hwang

Friend(s): Lee Taemin

☤-Family/Background

Biography: Born in San Francisco, Us. I was born as a child from new love, as my mom fell in love with my dad when she was visting japan, then they fell in love, and my dad meet my older brother Sunghyun and my mom made my other brother Yuya, who from my mom last relationship. Few years later in year 1992 i was born, as soon as i could walk my dad taught me and sunghyun how to dance, and when i turned 2 i was taught how to play piano, it was always my dad's dream for me, Yuya and sunghyun to be performers, when we grew up. Soon when i was 5, I was walking home from School, with the teacher and while we're walking she took me a different route, leading me to a human trafficking group, but as soon i broke down, she said she hated me and just wish for me to disappear forever, which her me as i was close to her she was like my umma, soon my dad got worried after i didn't come home, so he went looking for me, only to find a group of old creepy man going somewhere so he followed, only to find out about my bidding, and he bet most of his money and took me, home a month later we moved to Gyeonggi provice, one day i was running around in a forest while playing with my oppas, near a octopus resterant , and while i was playing i fell into a hole, and that where i met Jang Dongwoo, a crazy 7 year old, who made my day from that point on, with that we always met at the hole in the forest, soon when we turned 10 and 12, i was walking home only to see a heart on my door, that was pretty out of shape, "will you be mine" it said on the heart. That mark the beginning of our relationship, of course it was a really innocent relationship, kisses on the cheek, holding hands, and writing little notes, i was truely happy, everyone was saying we were already married, well it seem like that, as he always walked me to class and home.

However by the time i turned 13, things started to slowly go down head, as my father got extremely sick, to the point that he had to stay in the hospital, i was extremely close to my father so, i couldn't handle seeing him like that i always cried seeing him sick, I stop seeing dongwoo as much as he went off for auditions, but my father loved dongwoo as his own son, so he wanted us to be together, even though we were young, soon he got so sick, that Yuya flew in from japan, Kevin stop training, and my mom stop working, we know he was dying, but we didn't want to face the facts, soon his lost his battle with lupes, and pased, but before, since i was the only one up at the time, he smiled and told me "To never let you head, keep head up and be happy, always smiles as i'm so happy you were born into my family, as my daughter" with that he took his last breath, at first i couldn't believe it as my father was healthy man, and was released from the hosiptal, two day before, only to get rushed into emergency room. I never really expressed my feelings with anyone as i hated pity, but one day i couldn't contain my feelings, dongwoo was talking about what if he left and wasn't able to come back for a long time, that broke my heart and i yelled at him, "Yah! your just going to leave me like that too, then go i hate you stupid gutts, i hate you" i screamed only to be pulled into his embraced "yah, pabo, i'll always be with you, just as your father is, as love is connected by a string of fate" he said as he held me tighter "I really do love you, Crystal, saranghae" he said as he took my first kiss.

Soon, everything was alittle better as my life was getting good, after that confession, me and dongwoo were inseperable, always finishing each other thoughts, and nagging each other like we were really married, soon Dongwoo audition and got into a commpany called Wooliment, i was happy, but then the girls who often like to bully me, started saying things like soon i'll be no good as he have pretty idols girlfriends, so after a while i felt like i was waiting for him to say "let's Break up" i prayed that those words woldn'y never come, which they didn't but one day he notice my thoughts "I won't ever, leave Crystal Woo-Matsua," he yelled with his goofy grin.

Soon he had to leave and stay in the dorms, with his new band mates, leaving me to the crude school i knew. Soon after he left the girls were extremely angry that i was stealing their boyfriends, as my babyface, and petite figure, was "Adorable" to them i hated the attention i was getting, i hated it honestly as i never really like the attention, soon the girls start to bully me intensly i had no friend, i hated how i was view as a prize, soon the boys became more aggressive as they start back hugging rubbing they hands up my legs, claiming their hands slip when they my chest,i never like the attention since all my friends had left i was alone, so i slowly closed myself away as i was scared, the girls, one day made up their mind and make me look like the i was as they put it, by cuttting my skirt, and ripping my shirt, this resulted in the boys trying to get to third base, by draging me and into the bathroom, touching me, they stop when my tears spilled , after that day i lost trust in people, even student who didn't know, didn't ask if i need help.

Soon i fell in depression as my happines was gone from me, i had no reason to be happy, my mom had to take over my father bussiness, leaving me in korea, by myself, My dad was watching over me far away, My brothers were too busy,as kevin visted his elder sister in america, while yuya was touring he often called but it wasn't enough. I need only his embraced, only to smell him, to hold him, so one night i called him "What!?" a voice rang that was cold "Oppa, it's---" "Yah listen, we love you fan honestly, but seriously stop calling us, if you care then stop, you making us hate you, you fangirls should just go away, you know all of us have secret girlfriends, we don't want to and will not return your love, so stop calling, araesso" the voice scolded me "Dongwoo oppa" i rememeber saying as tear fell a yelled was heard in the background and i heard his voice "I can't stand you anymore, stop calling us, hyung, doesn't like it so-" "Ah it Crystal, opp-" I cried "We can't be together right now, stay happy crystal, our love has fated, i has to go, bye don't call bac" he said as if he was lying but it still broke my heart. With that i believe i was not wanted so i slit my wirst and sat in the bath tube.

Next thing i remember seeing a Yuya that i was quite scared of "What the hell is wrong with you" "YAH!" i hear a voice that was pretty only to be kevin "Wae" they said "i not happy, i said not meeting their eyes, "Live with us" they said "I don't trust you" i whisperied that when the doctor explained my conditions,

Soon i made it through high school, and became a translater and slowly i became an author as i wrote my dreams, and people feel in love with my books, then i met Tiffany, the tiffany who was my favorite american friend, and i slowly open up to her

Parents: Mother:Sumi Woo | 45 | CEO of japan national trading company |Kind and caring, somewhat dense as she can really tell when i'm in pain | Doesn't look like average 45 year old lady, she has a quite young appearance, as if she look like she 20

Father : Yuki Matsua|Deceased| Former CEO of Japan national trading company| An amazing father, he could tell when something was wrong, and he knew how to cheer you up, he always had a huge grin| he had long hair, shoulder blade length, he had dark brown hair, that shine in the light.

☤-Your sickness

What kinds of sickness/illness do you have?:Depression and Social Anxiety

How long have you had it?: since i was 15, 1/2, so 4 1/2 years

How many times do you visit the doctor?: 3 days a week

Why do you have this sickness/illness?: I started losing trust in people then my happiness left me completly, and when i tried to contact him my heart was broken in to infinite amount of pieces

How did you find out about your sickness/illness?: When i had an Anxiety attack, while going to a subway with my mom , that made my body system shut down, as if i was i had a heart attack and , and doctor explained that i had Social Anxiety, and it would progess faster because of my depression

How long do you have left to live?:N/A

☤-Your Medicine

Top 3 boys/girls (medicines): Jang Dongwoo 21, Ahn Daniel 20(Teentop niel), Lee sungjong 19, They're all dongsaeng lovers, but they act more kiddy

Describe him/her: Dongwoo and Daniel are both easily jealous, however they also care alot and can be very overprotective, with many thing such as guys come up to me, espically after he found out what happen in School when he left, he also knows that i don't like talking much, so he'll step in and talk for me, however when he knows people are made at him he pouts and whines, and that doesn't work he fake crys into a conner, while staring back at you with his big puffy eyes. Sungjong pretty much the same but he more stright foreward when your mad at him, as he startes getting angry

How did you meet?: When i first moved to S.Korea, I was 5, i was running in this forrest part behind my house, only to fall in a whole, so i cried for my oppa, only to hear "Yah!, Genchana" and to see a boy with a goofy grin, holding out a hand to me, i just trust him and grabbed his hand, with that began our friendship that turn into love

How do you act towards one another?: I act cautions yet caring toward him as, i still care and love him, but my turst for him isn't there, no matter how much i try my heart won't open up to him completely, as i'm scared by him, and don't want to be hurt again by anyone. He acts the same with me before he left like nothing change still doing all the sweet little things like

How did you tell him/her about your sickness/illness?: I told him that i can't be happy, and that i can't trust anyone, including him, after he question why i wasn't acting the same with him, and not hugging him back or meeting his eyes, or not wanting go to outside.

Why do you love him/her?: Because when i first moved to korea i met this over top cheerful oppa, that always smiled, and always protected me no matter what, and he truly cared about my happiness, even though he left when i felt like i needed him the most, when he can back from training he wore that goofy grin, and he acted the same, no matter how tired he was, he always acted as my oppa. Even after his debut, and after he became famous. Even now, even though i can't love him like i used to, he still trys, no matter what

Why does he/she love you?: When i first met him, he saved. He was the youngest of his family, but with me he felt mature, and wanted to protect me, as i wasn't like all the girls, I was Innocent, and wasn't trying to see how many guys would like me, i wasn't like those who wanted for his s, but i like him because of his weird personality and his faults, He wasn't going to audition at first, i wanted him to follow his dream, while everyone said he wouln't get in because of his Apperance, and that he was too dull, so i encoraged him to go for it and he got in, even when he started training, i never left his side, always engcouraging him, even now, even though my illness cause me to not act normal, i stand by his side

How did he/she quit his/her career for you?:He explained that it was family emergency, and beg to get out of his contract, as without knowing i'm okay he can't live happy

Crush(es): Nope

☤-Finale

Comments?: No, it was just right. sorry it took so long, my computer was being weird, Also Fighting and i'll read even if i don't get picked

Concerns?: (Requests?)

Did you read all the rules and promise to follow them?: Yes i did, i'll do all those thing even if i don't get pick

Password: Jang Dongwoo | A lot of people don't realize that depression is an illness. I don't wish it on anyone, but if they would know how it feels, I swear they would think twice before they just shrug it.

Jonathan Davis

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baby_1004 #1 Feb 18, 2012 18:22:56

as much as i do love your application. . . .
being detailed, but some parts were over detailed than others and some were less than what i had expected.
im sorry but if you dont erase your blog then i can garantee a spot as a cameo