So I know that I said that I'm not very much interested to kpop anymore, but here I'am writing about my fandom life.

I had a lot of fandom back in time when i was so obsessed with boybands and girl groups. I'm the type of fangrirl that screams to the top of my lungs even in a single update, legit or not. I spazz everywhere, with myself or with my friends. I also cover songs and join dance cover groups, attend conventions and buy posters, lanyards and such. So typically, i was a 100% hopeless romantic fangirl.

Well, I guess everybody went through own struggles and complete numbness.

I started to lose my interest in kpop when Luhan left Exo. That was the biggest downfall of my fangirl history. I was so inlove with Exo that I automatically shutdown when the news got out. But i still cover songs and dance routines, but i don't spazz as much as before.

Then Kris left, and then Taozi.

Then here comes college. I got busy, so do my groupmates. I started reading books more and forgot to check updates. I was a scholar in my college institution and i work 30 hours a week, so most of my time is in the office, in class hours or at home, where we're wifi isolated.

It's almost a year when i lost my interest with my beloved k-pop, and I knew that i was outdated, as in, a lot. But something happened to me this last week.

I was shuffling through Spotify, and it turned out that i selected a random playlist of pure daebak K-pop songs. The first song was the new BTS single, Blood, Sweat, and Tears.

I was captivated. By the time I finished the music video, I knew that my Kpop blood was coming alive.

I catched up with the time and hits, and new groups. I had my own pick and remembered the ones i really liked.

I know, i will follow gradually, step by step.

I'm not blaming Exo with my uninterestedness. Maybe i was just in the hook for a long that i lost interest with what i was doing. I'm not sorry with what happened, and I'm happy with what I had become. I hope you guys will understand my reasons.

I'm happy with my type of music right now. And the genre I'm into today. I have new ides with mixing it with my Kpop bloodline.

Maybe, what they say is always true.

"Once a K-pop fangirl, always a K-pop fangirl."