hi. i'm lee hyerin, but you can just call me erin. it's nicer that way. anyhow, i was born and raised in seoul, and i'm turning 19 on the 31st.

 

I don't like to do what people expect. Why should I live up to other people's expectations instead of my own?

So you disappoint them from the start and then you're covered, right?

Something like that.

 

let's start with likes & dislikes, shall we? i like music, first of all. i like listening to authentic pop, alternative rock and indie folk. i like going to places. i hate being confined to one place. have i mentioned that i'm /almost/ never at school? i know my dad pays for everything, and i go to a really nice school, but sometimes i can't help but just skip it. i  know i can pass my subjects anyway. i like people -- the energy they give off, especially the positivity, but dislike relationships. i guess dislike is a strong word. i don't particularly /dislike/ relationships. i just find them uncomfortable because yet again, i feel confined. i know this makes me look like a . i am one, just not totally. but i have views on this. it's frustrating, i know. i'm just glad i have my peers beside me. they understand. and if they don't, at least they don't pop it out in the open and shove it in my face that i'm this wretched girl nobody understands. i like the stars a lot. i dont know all the constellations. i just love how they twinkle ceaseslessy. they make me feel like i'm part of something much more. finally, i like girls. i don't dislike a lot of stuff except for racism, ism, homophobia, islamphobia, capitalism, -shaming and all those social injustices that need to go. i'm a er for revolts.

moving on to the facts about me, my mom and dad are divorced. both have their own families now. it's kind of difficult, i guess. it just that i can't go home with them anymore and they can't kiss each other anymore. because of that 'wonderful episode' of my life, i have suffered depression. i'm okay now. i just get these little moments of panic attacks. the illness never left. it's stuck with me forever. but don't worry, i found ways on how to keep it at bay.

• figure number one, cigarettes. it helps that i live alone in an apartment my parents pay for. i took out the smoke detectors because it'll be easier to explain to my folks that 'i was robbed' instead of 'i am smoking'.
• figure number two, books. i'm not talking about those ya books that are trendy right now. i read books about politics and literatures. i sometimes read about sociology too. i think niklas luhmann, wilbur schramm and marshall mcluhan are interesting people, i admire karl marx although i think he's a baby, but i appreciate him nonetheless.
• figure number three, i have this cute little journal that has all my poetry, prose and drawings. the best way to keep your sanity in check is through a journal. it works!

 

to conclude this, i am tempermental, opinionated, transparent, aggressive, sarcastic, guarded, selfish, sensitive, loyal, curious, broken and living. 

이혜린 / ERIN 

oct. 31, 1998

168 cm, 49 kgs

Born & raised in seoul, south korea

faceclaim: x

tl/dr: a girl who just wants to be understood & remembered, but cannot keep still. alternatively, a girl who wants to be appreciated despite being utterfly flawed.

 

 

RIM for erin is like the sister she never had. erin has always had conflicting relationships with people because of the way she thinks. she doesn't get the essence of forming relationships so it's quite hard for her to be in one. but because of choi rim, erin learned that there are more things in life than living in one's solidarity. rim made her see that it's nice to have company once in a while, especially the company you prefer. after all, their squad isn't just any squad. they all have that connection that may not seem palpable at times, but it's there. and with rim's guidance, erin can see it. choi rim is more than just a friend. she understands erin in a whole new different level. when it comes to erin's panic attacks, the first thing she does is speed dial rim's number. in a sec, she'll be there & they'll talk about stars and midnight drives until erin calms down.