some of you might know what the heck spm is. for some who dont, its kinda this one of the biggest exam to determine where you're going to after turning 18. it's like tasting alcohol for the first time. although the excitement exceeds our hardworks, the pain of getting there is unspeakable for god sake. i'm taking 10 subjects that myself aren't really sure whether i can or cannot credit in. daymnnnnnn. i actually gave up in getting ready for the exam as it is stressing me out (i got anxiety attacks, migrain and this stress nerve thingy everytime i tried to push myself.) and its not ugh. its just ugh. i just hope i can further my studies. or just reach my dreams. or just.. be what i want to be. anything but a bum.