Hi, People.

I have a lot of things in my mind right now, and I don't know who or where to tell about this.

I mean yes, I do have people I can trust, but I've been complaining a lot these days and I'm afraid my ranting will eventually tire them.

Then I remember that I still have AFF where I've met several great people, so why not?

I constantly feel lonely, even though I've got a boyfriend by now. The thing is, as some of you may or may have not known, I am not that.. into boys.

And I don't know why, but I can't seem to find my circle of friends that I can go hangout with anytime. Especially at nights.

My loneliness (or like, social anxiety) got worsen when early this semester, I found out that 2 of the friends I considered close, turned out were badmouthing me behind. es. Sorry. But what they did to me meant nothing compared to the one or two swearing.

I don't know, but this is not really the life I could live brightly. And being an overthinker I am, I started wondering what I did wrong to people. And guess what?

I don't ing know.

I guess I need to learn how to be content with life. But then I open my social medias and see how my friends--or people I know--are hanging out and having fun 'til late, while I'm stuck here.

I'm not really asking for advice, I just want to share my story. But if you feel like dropping me some, then please don't hesitate.

I won't mind reading your stories too. Again, as some of you may have or may have not known, I'm a pretty good listener (or reader).

Good night beautiful people! May you have a good life ahead. :) 

 

 

 

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Stephie108 #1
Hey, just be who you are. Don't be so frustrated about what others people tell you. They don't give you money to live anyway, your parents are the ones who give you financial support so there's no point let those bad es bothering you. Stay strong & come back soon!
mook_ing #2
Hey, I guess many have already said it, that you should at least be happy with your boyfriend and if you're not, it is no point having him. But I'm just curious, if you know your attraction is towards girls, why did you get yourself a boyfriend? If you don't want to answer it's okay!
As for your loneliness, I can totally understand it. I also have many people around me but more than half the time I feel lonely because I can't really find someone to fully confide in. If you need a listening ear, feel free to talk to me! Besides we're all anonymous on the internet!
SuccessfulLoser #3
If you're not happy with your boyfriend you shouldn't be with someone you can't really be happy with, it's kinda like lying to yourself, you know what I mean, been there done that, about your friends haha es be crazy, about the loneliness I know it's hard but you just need someone to listen and talk to you, so if ever I'm here if you wanna talk and let some steam out, feel better
13luvsfriday #4
So are you happy having a boyfriend?
Well thats human nature soon you ll find a worthy friend just dont trust easy put your guard up .
So hows life ?
JessicasThong #5
I believe you shouldn't be focusing on having a social life atm. I mean, yeah, people get lonely. It's normal. But I feel like that's going to hinder you from doing what you have to do, like school. It's always great to keep yourself busy, keep your mind off of all that mess.

Regarding to those people who have been bad-mouthing you. Jealousy, lol. They can talk all they want. Who gives a ? Ive been talked about so many times. I just shrug it off. I have a really passive attitude.

If you want to go out and be like your friends on social media, I guess one step would be making new friends. Maybe you could text your friends more often. Hit them with a, "Hey, let's hang out next weekend." Or something like that. My life is boring as atm. No relationship. Just work, work, and work. I don't get the time to hang out with my squad, but I know all my hard work will pay off. It takes patience. I really hope you get better. You're a good person and you deserve good things.
meloveamber #6
Well... I'm bot good with advices and stuff, but I'm a great listener/reader too. And when you're feeling lonely, just tell me. I'll keep you company (virtually that is... hehe)
skoreafan #7
Hey, I really get that. I think it's normal to feel lonely even when you have a boyfriend, because you probably feel lonely due to the lack of friends. Friendship is not an easy thing, and to be honest I've been tired of it myself lately. I realize that I overthink, too much that I can't even handle myself. I think that you might be overthinking too. Have you talked with your 2 close friends yet? Maybe there was a misunderstanding between you guys. If you really think that you are close with them, then you should talk it out to know what's going on between you guys. And I do feel really really sad when my close friends have fun in social media without me, so that's part of the reason why I don't open social media (unless I'm really really bored).
Anyway please do know that there are people around you. Maybe you might be pushing other people out so you feel lonely? For me, I sometimes think that I purposely push people away and distance myself so that people would see how lonely I am. Sounds pathetic right? But I'm scared of being close around people because then I'd feel lonely too, in my circle of friends. Like it's better to be lonely because I'm by myself instead of being lonely in a crowd because I don't match with them. (sorry for sorta ranting :/, I'm just giving my opinion I guess)
You're okay. People have flaws. We might not recognize them yet, but we have to learn how to accept it.
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