i'm constantly getting abused by my family, either verbally or physically. i had so many suicide thoughts, but i somehow always tried my best to not think that way. kids in my school are only nice to me when they need something from me and honestly, it's killing me. i have no friends at all and nobody ever cared about me. i tend to hide how depressed i am around anyone because they would probably say i'm just faking everything in seek for attention. i just lock myself in the room and cry until i feel at least a bit better. i really don't know what to do anymore. i just want to be gone, but i guess i'm too much of a "chicken" to just commit a suicide. i really wish i had someone, anyone who would just listen to me and make me feel less worthless in this goddamn world. i need someone who wouldn't call me a goddamn attention seeker for wanting to tell everything that's on my mind.