I know I don't have any friends here in this website.This is why I think this is the best place for me to release this negative feelings in my heart.

I am so tired now and i want some rest. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so exhausted. I don't have the will to continue yet I also don't have the will to end this. I just don't want to do anything but rest. 

It just feels like everything is my fault. Even telling someone what I feel, that I am in pain because of them, is also my fault. That everything is because of me. 

KPOP has been with me in this battle for six years already but I don't know if even that will keep me alive for the next six years.