I just...
So, I just wanted to ask for advice or at least get this off my chest..
I've written about this relationship (or non excistent one, therefore) with this boy that I've got to know...
So, basically, we met at this party few months back, and we're not living in the same town, since I live in one, and study Uni at the other, and he lives in the third.. So yeah, it's complicated. :D
And after couple of months of talking I just got to the point to cool down, to not feel anything, to really feel nauseous from talking to him.. And I didn't want to lead him on, so I got down to business, and said that I don't like him anymore like that and that we are better off friends than anything more.
That was a couple of weeks before, and yesterday, I went to his town (since my friend from Uni is from there too, and that's actually how I met him), and we got talking again, and I just... Realized that my feelings are still there.. And we were super like friendly but still teasing, and touching each other and all that, but nothing more..
And he has this thing to almost never forgive someone who dissapoint him, and he said that I did hurt him, but not dissapoint..
So the thing now is, that I want to be with him, but already said what I said couple of weeks before... And I turned out to be such a for not realizing things earlier and just jumping the gun.. But now.. I don't know
He said all those things how he cares for me, and that he can talk to me about things that he couldn't with any other previous girl, and that I'm also the smartest girl he has ever cared for and talked to..
And it's all nice and stuff, but he's like in contact with different girl(s), not sure really, but he's texting someone else, and didn't try anything last night...
And my point here is that I'm stupid, lol, jk, but I am, since I just went with the feeling I felt that time when I said we're better off friends, and now I want to burst since I really want to be with him
So girls, be smart and think about someone or something couple of times, before deciding and ruining something that couldn've been so good.
Sorry for the long rant, but I needed someone else to hear this (other than my friends), and say confirm that I'm a and that I don't deserve him anymore...
(and he's like everything I ever wanted in a boy)
Thank you :')
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