:'(

Hello, everyone. I haven't been active in a while so I hope that a few of you can still remember me. Tbh, because of my undiagnosed depression, I haven't been functioning as a normal human being lately. And it coz' there are times where I would catch myself zoning out, wanting to burst out crying and my head is filled with depressive thoughts and suicidal thoughts too. I don't know what to do anymore. I can say that I am a bit okay sometimes, but those times never last. I know that I should tell my family about my condition already, but I'm scared. I'm really ing scared of their reaction and on what they're all gonna say to me. Opening up to people is such a challenge to me, even if those people are my family. Like, I just want to cry right now because my heart is hurting. People say that you must help yourself. But I can't. I tried but I failed. It's like going around in circles. Sometimes I think if I'm going to go crazy. Maybe I am already, I just didn't know.

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rococco #1 Jul 23, 2016 12:53:12

Yeah, I agree with the others. I think you should talk to your parents. I've also been through what you're going through right now and I finally talked about it to my parents because I knew it was the only best way. :)
I hope you find the courage to tell them that. ^0^

sleepingprince #2 Jul 23, 2016 12:30:26

I think you should tell your family . What you need right now is support . All i can say is never give up no matter what happen. You need to learn to accept yourself , seek all the help that you need , have confident . As long as you keep trying and dont give up i'm sure you can be fine and back to normal or even better again ^_^

chicKwon_dal03 #3 Jul 22, 2016 22:24:22

Listen to what people say... I know a friend who's definitely had A similar condition to yours, and it end up , pretty bad like he wouldnt accept advices because it wont help himthough accdg to him.. And it lead him to say ungrateful things to everone...andit hurts...like helll. Knowing your being a true friend for him but he does see things differently....Yes, you should helpyoursef... Accept and let go... Do what youmust do.dont pamper that fear youdevelop... It wont help you i swear... And please.. Open this up to your family.... Try to fight it...

superdupper #4 Jul 22, 2016 10:33:54

You should tell your parents . I'm sure they will help you ヽ(^。^)丿 don't be scare tell them before its to late . okay . I will be here and cheering you up . hugssლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)

alexajjang #5 Jul 22, 2016 10:31:19

I feel so sad to know that you're feeling this D: let me tell you something: depression is a serious thing. To be honest one of my closest friends was suffering this for a long time. At the beginning, she didn't want to tell her parents about this because like you, she was damn scared about their reaction and to be seen as a weak girl. I was angry with myself because I didn't even notice her change of behaviour. I thought everything was going well with her until one day I noticed that she was having a panick attack and she was crying so bad, I didn't know how to help her but after this, she finally confessed to me everything. God this was one of the saddest days of my life. After long conversations, I finally convinced her that telling her parents about this was the best decisión because more than the help of her friends, she needed professional help and of course the love/support of her parents. To make this short, until now she's taking treatment for her depression and now she's 1000 times better than before. f course this will take time but the good thing is that she doesn't feel alone anymore

I'm telling you this because you're not alone! Even when I don't know you, I can tell that you're so precious. Please be strong and never give up. I know it's hard but you should tell your parents everything. There's nothing to be scared of because GOD never abandons us, okey? I will suport you despite the distance :) *virtual hug*