i really doubt anyone is going to read this because i feel like this website is becoming kind of dead, but then again how would i know???? i only log in to read old messages and feel nostalgic, knowing that someone i won't really find friends like these again, but i can't bring myself to give a about anything else. 

almost everything about me has changed. for one, i'm not into kpop anymore. at least not the way i used to be, bc downloading exo's latest album on my spotify and skipping every song when they come on my shuffle really shouldn't count. i guess its just to remind me of the comfort of simplicity i felt as an active member on this website, even though it was tainted by the complexity of lies i managed to produce during my stay. 

i really don't know what ive been trying to say. i dont know if i was going to say anything worthwhile in the first place. maybe idk like this is stupid for me to get sad over but i miss my friends on here? i don't think i could ever talk to a group of people so easily. i've never had the privilege to call an irl my best friend and ive never been anyone's best friend, but the people i talked to here were the closest people i was to when i was homeschooling. there was actually something special there (at least for me) and i'll never forget it. i'm sorry you guys had to know me during a time when i was naive and immature and overall pretty dumb?? 

so yeah i doubt anyone will read this but if someone does (specifically ana or juliane or kayla) im really ing sorry lol