Han Yeo Reum- Jung Yumi

Kang Tae Ha- Eric Moon

Nam Ha Jin- Sung Joon

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Two years in my bookmarked drama list, I finally found time to watch this drama. This has to be the most realistic kdrama I have ever seen. I find myself understanding each character, especially Han Yeo Reum. 

I fell in love, hard, when I was in my teens, barely a month before my 17th birthday. It was different, he was my 3rd, it was then I realized that my first boyfriend was not my first love, my 3rd was. Mama was okay with me dating at such an early age as long as she knew who I date and where. We dated just inside our house, we were neighbors, we knew each other, of course but he was never my type. We were minors with not much money to go out on a date, so we settled at the confines of our house. My parents gave us privacy, whatever privacy you have at a garden kiosk, we talked, held hands, cuddled, kissed and planned college, everything, even the kids. With that tender age we were almost sure we'd end up together. that was how deep that love was.... But things happened and I ended up hurt... he changed so much and I ended up waiting, ended up holding on to what's left of us. that's why I toughened up.. I did not invest on the relationship I had after him... until this guy.. the guy I am married to after 6 years of dating. it's true that you tend to take the relationship for granted when you get comfortable, I did that to him. When Nam Ha Jin asked Yeu Reum "Do you always have to win at every fight?" it resonated to me, big time. It was the same question my husband asked when we were still dating, and it's also true that it's because of that one failed relationship. You see, no matter how we deny it, we still get affected by that. I told him about my past heartache, of course, he even argued that he's different, he's not the same guy that gave me my scar, that I'm giving the punishment to the wrong person. But what can I do, its instinct.

I'd be lying if I say I hadn't thought of my ex.. I had, I still do and still check his social media if he's doing fine, even now, it's just how it is, he was such a big part of my life that feelings linger. I was dating other guys but I tend to compare them to him.

We saw each other at a reunion, we talked, danced, then we went home... together... we walked slowly in silence and without a word he dragged me at a dark corner and kissed me, I let him.. there's something I needed to confirm, maybe he did too.. but the kiss was different from the time we dated, it's just not the same... the spark we felt has passed... the kiss was sort of a confirmation for the both of us. if ever it was still the same, we could've started again but it wasn't... so we moved on.. maybe because we dated for just a few months, 6 months and that included the wooing process. maybe the good times we had were not enough to hold on, it might be different if we dated for 5 years like Yeo Reum and Tae Ha. just 6 months but the feelings we had for each other lingered. Before that confirmation kiss, I still have this ache in my heart when I thought of him, I was still bitter. But after that, no, I smile tenderly and all I can think of was the good memories that we had. 

I was glad that my husband and I passed that period where Yeo Reum and Tae Ha did not, we fought hard but we held on to each other, we wanted to go through it together. I am proud of the fact that we never broken up even once while we were dating. I used to tell him I never pick up the pieces I've thrown so he lived in fear, he was nervous too, like Ha Jin, but I made sure he was happy, he was always on his toes, but I pamper him as well, making him feel loved. we were like that for 3 years or so in our relationship, I was the boss. but after I realized that this guy is not going anywhere, I loosened up, and let him win from time to time. now we are equal. He bosses me as I bosses him, but he's more patient than I am, so.... :)

First love does die, but there is still that one special spot at the corner of your heart that warms up everytime you get to be reminded of him. I am thankful that he let me go, that we had broken up. he was a nice guy. but looking at how he is now, I am thankful that we were not meant to be. :)

This drama was such a nice watch, I hated Yeo Reum and thought she could've just ended it with Ha Jin, but I also understood her. I hated Tae Ha for swaying her feelings but I also understood him, I hated Ha Jin for letting everything go, because he feared he'd loose her, but I understood him. arghhh! this is the drama that I rooted for everyone and it was great. Now I knew from the eyes of other people I must have been a b*tch for letting my ex kiss me while I was dating another guy because I also thought that of Yeo Reum,. But what I did was necessary to move on... yes I am rationalizing.. haha.. but really... that kiss we shared was an eye opener for the both of us, I'm thankful that we did, for our final closure.

Thank you for reading!