Anyways,I did such a terrible thing and I feel so bad rn......

You see,remember the father's day message I posted for my dad?Well,I actually was gonna write one for my grandpa but.....oml I'm so sorry.......I forgot about him......I feel so bad......

So....my grandpa.....we all call him "Daddy." Since we adapted it from our parents and he was the nicest man ever.He was my only grandpa since my paternal gramps died before he even met ANY of his granchildren.So....he's the nicest man ever.....there was this one time where I broke one of the santa clause paper maché figurines he bought for my grandma.He spent time looking for it and put a lot of effort on buying it all and bringing it to our house and to our province safely......normally,others would get mad but he just made me sit on his lap and told me stuff like...."I'm growing up so fast....." "I look like my dad......" And more......he didn't even mention that I just broke the figurine......and he always spoiled me.....always bring me food or toys when he visits.....he's actually pretty strong for his age......70 plus of age and still keeping the town of ours in the province in check....he's an important part of it I guess.....our family was known in our province for being rich,lots of businesses,but despit all that....being nice and helping out people.....his hAir is still all black......despit his age.....

Anyways,he's such a good guy.....and the last time I saw him was November of 2014......when he visited with my grandma.......why was it so long since I saw him?Well,also in November of 2014.....I sat at night trying to sleep but there was a feeling......like something wasn't right.......I was like that until morning came and I fell asleep.....

When I woke up,my uncle recieved a text saying that he's dead.Thinking it was just a prank,my mom called my grandpa but he wasn't the one who answered......and that's when the news came out......he was murdered.....I couldn't think of anyone who would do such a thing.....he was so kind to everyone.....I just......he was shot by someone and.....died..... They were just supposed to be having breakfast when one of our.....I dont know what's called but it's a kind of machine we own and it does something to land.....it had to be taken into our garage and of course,the servants helped.....but then someone was at the gate....and when he opened the gate.....

The neighbors didn't respond immediately since one of the neighbors like to randomly shoot his gun so they thought it was just him and not my grandpa and the servants were all too scared to do anything.....I don't  lame them tho....they just witnessed a bloody murder....litterally tho.....there were even pics........anyways,everyone was crying and I was just confused.....I didn't know what to do.....my brother was trying to get me out of the way because my uncle and mom were emotionally unstable and my sister is trying call everyone to tell the news.....It was all new to me.....they were all so hollow.....empty......I just.....I was confused......

When we went to our province for the wake,I couldn't look at him.....I just couldn't bring myself to.....that year.....the first new year......we didn't do fireworks because of well.....the sound.....and our first christmas and new year without him....

I miss him.......

I'm actually crying while writing this so forgive any mistakes.....my eyes are blurry