Well... Heyya! It had been a very long time. I know, I know. I am very sorry. For my previous post I had ask you to write about your stories. And I want to you to know that I am grateful for all the comments that I had received. I had replied to some of it but I was to busy with my part time (blessed my life) that I could only make out some time to read it. I am very very very sorry that I can't reply to all of the commenter but I want you all to know that I had read it and I appreciate it so much. Thanks alot. I wish for all of you to have a successful life from today onward. May the best will always be with you.

So, I guess it's not fair to only ask your stories but I need to share mine as well.. So here we go and I'll start it with "Once upon a time"

So here goes nothing... Once upon a time, I had a boyfriend. A special one since I've got a lot of boy friends. He's older than me. 3 years older to be exact. Well, I would like to address him as Lex. Lex is my bestfriend's cousin and our first impression of each other was not good at all. It was all started during my school's sport days and he had came as a supporter. And we met in the most embarassing way. We bumped at each other and had me fall flat on the mud! Like flat on my !! My personality is somewhat fierce and I waste no more time but to strike at him eventhough he had apologised to me. And we're yelling at each other (WHY MUST I BE SO CHILDISH!!) until our friend pull us apart because people had started to stare and I swear that I could feel how hot my face at the time when I realized people at staring at us. So things went on quietly after that. Since we live quite far apart . And then one day after about a month after that incident I received a text from some stranger. I know cliche much isn't it? *shrug* Idk.. My life is full of clicheness. So he introduced himself in the text and apologized for his mistake and I am already cool at the time, so I just apologized him straight away. From that on we became text buddy. We do calls but usually we text each other. Generally we text almost everyday about everything. Lame jokes, sad news, exam result, friends brawl.. sometimes the thing we text was as simple as the weather. It went on for few month, and we had gone to accustomed with each other text, which somehow brighten up our days. And then one day, I haven't received his text. I waited for him all day long. Texting him so many time asking him if I had make any mistake but there's no reply. And I had a frustrating episode happen that lead me to broke down because I had no one to turn to. And when I called him, there's only phone operator and that really make me cry my heart out. I was confusingly empty and lonely. I don't know. It feel weird. And empty. And sad and hurt. It went on for a week and when I had given up on him, making an assumption that he must have some other thing to keep him occupied, he appear in front of my house. Idk if you can understand how is it feel like when someone leave you hanging for a time, it almost drive you crazy and return just to tell you that they're doing this to test if they're someone in your life. I think that if I am a dragon I would have some smoke coming out of my nostrils and ear. I am so angry that I smacked the door in front of his face but not before punching him stright on the face (precaution : lunatic hysteric unknown entities). BAM!! But of course he was the drama king. I had to opened up the door and talk to him before he alarmed the whole neighbourhood and make my parent call the security to drag him out. Apparently he said that he no longer want to be only text buddy and he want to engage in some more serious relationship with me. I rejected him saying that I don't know my true feeling for him, if I had feeling for him that are more than friend because what we had ever been is only a text buddy. And I am not confident even if we give it a shot, we could last because we're too far apart, I mean it's leaping one state to be with each other and to go through a long distance relationship, I don't think I can do it (I was a kid with a thinking of ability of 80 yrs old people. My friend had always scold me about being too careful for we are young and were obliged to be reckless). And he just went quiet after that, saying that it's okay that he understand my choice and won't force me but he's face scrunched is some painful expression that make me feel guilty for the whole week. But he was secretly persuasive in his own way. He never giving up on the idea of us. Starting from then he had always come to visit me at least once in a month. I mean, it was a big thing because we're leaving in two different state and with every journey it tooks almost 2 hours and moreover that you're a student it was a big deal. At first I couldn't grasped it. I thought he was just being nice to make up his mistake. When he was actually making clear that he like me and he was serious.Yes I know that I am a dumblebeeno. I mean he was being too nice. Sometimes it seem like a normal bff thing but sometimes it was different. Different grace of movement, the way he would hold onto me sneakily making it look like an accident whenever he had a chance, the way his eye would show possesiveness over me when there's other guy tried to approached me. I was confused. I ask him what was that for, he just shrugged it off with a smile but there's some undescribable emotion linger behind his gaze. it took me some time to interpret but sooner as we had started to go out often I began to realise it. That he had never given up the idea of "us". So I confront him that I would like to give him a chance. I don't exactly know how we will end but I can't stand being drove to crazy over this emotion, and I am willing to give "us" a shot. And he was so delightful that he almost screamed in the cafe ( I told you he's a drama king ) but luckily I successfully stuffed the whole creampuff into his mouth to refrain him from shouting. Now that I am thinking about it we was officially a couple for about 6 month before one big catastrophe (apologize the over exaggerating) that lead us to another phase of our relationship.

I guess my stories is a bit too long.... I could make it into a one-shot... TT.TT. I am sorry. I still have half of my story to tell but it was toooooooooo long and I don't want to lead anyone to die in boredness over this nonsense~~ TT.TT. If there's anyone reading this, I would like to thank you all for reading this.