Well, I've discovered that I like to party and hang out with my grade and underage drink and avoid the drugs but not the druggies, and I like to spend time at the beach with my whole grade (which has now become a weekly thing for us). Stuff like that me we happened before. It legit took me up until my last year of high school to feel like I belong with everyone, and not in a way where I think I'm pretenedng to be someone I'm not or forcing myself to fit in, I genuinely enjoy the stuff my graduating class does together (we have all ways been quite a close knit group of people , only 140 of us in grade 12, I just always was on the outside and anxious.) and I forgot how amazing the beach can be (even in Canada because, yes, it does get warm af fam) and I forgot how much I love to swim holy .

it gets better kids. You just gotta out in a little effort too. 

Also, a these new experiences are giving me Hella insperation for one-shots and fanfics, I finally low how to open my WonHuk and I have more ideas for markson and leobin and other non seventeen related ships!

so that's pretty ing good tbh.

almd the beach is a great stress reliever btw.

-Gillian