Well.. just like the title & tag of this blog post. 

I wonder if it's ridiculous (and weird and freak and stupid) to have such an attraction towards an author whose fanfics I always love? 

Yeah, I'm being open & honest here, that I recently got attracted to certain author(s) JUST BECAUSE I love the way they wrote their stories, the way they wrote fanfics so nicely, the way their stories have the abilities to tug at my heartstrings. To the point I wonder how they actually are in real life. To the point I have a thought like, "I THINK I want to get to know the real them more." .. Because some authors are (sometimes) so kind and so sweet, I can't help but to "feel" a little something. Lol I'm such a drama-queen huh. 

And I'm just too shy (or perhaps lazy) to approach them first XD .. And I'm also afraid they're not up to the idea of me wanting to get to know the real them more XD .. privacies, privacies. And also I'm afraid that I will annoy them. I'm such a drama-queen anyways XD  So yeah XD 

(If those authors I referred to manage to read this blog, I think they would be like "wtf this reader is weird af ew I must stay away" lololol therefore, if you author-nims who happened to bump to this post and think "I think it is me?", I'm sorry, and please don't worry I won't hunt you guys XD