Have you ever felt not loved? Like you are treated more differently. Don't you just hate it when theres those people that think you do anything what people say or you look like a weakling so they tell you what to do? I just hate it. What I hate the most is when my own family can turn their backs on me. My parents say stuff that they have no idea that I take it to my heart. Hearing them saying "I should've put you in the garbage if I knew you were going to treat me like this", really hurts me even though they don't mean it, why say it? There are some points I get suicidal thoughts. Like everyone knows that the most happy is the most hurt, but no one pay attentions to me anyways. I have this like problem on my and my mom wants me to go to the clinic so they can check on it. I don't want to, because I think this is what god has want me to die from. Like I pray that I don't die in pain. So if the problem on my is the solution, I'll let it. 

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