Please, Understand

Hey, everyone... it's your author here. First of all, I'd like to apologize for my absence and delay in the updates for my stories. You see... my mom found out about my uality and me having a girlfriend... she took away my phone... as well as grounding me. So, I am not able to contact anyone, especially my girlfriend. I'm honestly worried about her and ever since then.... old habits came back.... I'm sorry you all have to find out about my depression and suicidal intentions... but I just wanted to explain and let you know the reasons. Also, I've been neglecting my health. Some of you may know that I have asthma... but things just got worse for me. Everytime I cough or breathe, try at least, I feel like choking. Right now, I'm under a lot of medication. I know this may be too dramatic and you may think I'm being stupid.... but guys, that girl... my girlfriend.... she means so much to me. She isn't just my girlfriend, but also my best friend. Every night, I cry myself to sleep, thinking of her. I just end up sleeping for the whole day because I have nothing to do anymore. Everything I have is in my phone. I can't even go online unless someone is watching me and makes sure I can't contact her... Do you know how much that ..... There are times I thought that death is the only thing left for me. I tried bleeding myself... but it never happened.... I'm lost and broken, guys... I just want everything back to the way it was.... I'm so sorry.

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ALKimC #1
I cannot tell you how much this saddens me because your parents who should support you in everything have taken your one true support system, that being your best friend/girlfriend. Please find a way and don't give up, if you have other friends try and write letters and pass them to her or ask your other friends to give her messages. You can power through this, you are stronger than you believe and so is your relationship.
Cysseid #2
I feel you ... ive experience that a lot of times actually its been 5 times ive been grounded because i have a girlfriend... theyve taken my phone ,i cant talk to my friends who supported us ,ive tried laceration but it just make me depressed more , ive cried myself to sleep thinking that i may not be able to talk to her anymore ,i may not be able to see her anymore ... but then ive made this excuse ,that i needed my phone for school , then they gave it back ive been so careful , and its a good thing that they havent notice it yet sigh... falling for someone of the same gender really is hard but love can find a way though , my friends helped me to communicate with her . Anyways , are you okay now author nim? Just stay strong for her ,take care of yourself so that when you two meet again or communicate again she wont be worried about you
jurirena #3
Hello! i've been a huge fan of your work, and reading this is heartbreaking to me. I know where you coming from and i've seen it happen to my brother before. My parents don't know i'm into girls as i am with guys also yet and it scary to let them know because of what they can do to me. Don't be sorry it's not your fault, just keep fighting through, your girlfriend doesn't want you to be hurting cuz ill hurt her also if she sees you like this. Just keep being strong! theirs so many people that have the same issues as you and were all here to support you, your girlfriend, fans, and friends. Even if we've never talked in person or online, ill be here to help you, all your fans and your friends are here to support you! Get better soon <3
Jae-Eun #4
Please don't be depressed about this,because depression will make it worse. I can't say that I understand your situation but i can't say that i don't understand it neither. Every struggle and bad day your life comes up with is a way to make you stronger,so that you can pass any struggle that is waiting for you. The depression state is just a waste of time. Think about it otherwise. Like if I was grounded or something,I would have spent my time doing my favourite things,hobbies like singing for example. It helps me to release the anger or feelings that i can't show with the lyrics of the songs. I don't know if it will help. But make yourself forget about stress and bad moments of your life while you have time for it. Life is short and you will never know when it will end. Hope it will help you feel some relief.
LxttleRebel #5
I've been reading your stories since.... Ok idk when I started but ok yes what I wanna say is that I can't just simply say that I understand what you're going thru and all that bull because I dont, I'm lucky my mom is more understanding that, I am well les.. What am I saying again...
OKOK BACK ON TRACK so Im really bad at this as you can clearly see but then I'll be here, we'll be here, your readers your friends, your fans, we'll be your support. It's normal, everyone experiences a slump every now and then but what's important is that you pick yourself up and climb over it, and think of it this way? This may be an obstacle for your relationship but it'll make you guys even stronger, it'll make your bond stronger as well. Hope you feel better soon ): .
kingjokerz99 #6
yo my friend
don't worry about it maybe god just want to test you about your love to your gf .How about you fight for your love . And all of us here will support all of your actions because your happiness is something that you need to gain by yourself . not by others . Also for, your asthmatic idk what to advice since i don't have asthma but i think that if you eat your medicine and be happy anything will be fine . JUST TRUST ME . i have been your fan and friend for 2 months now so don't EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP. Every one of us has a story and it's our decision to when and how to ending our story but if we suddenly put an end in the middle of our story . won't we will have regrets . so instead of ending it in the middle authournim how about you just continue it and do the things that you think are true . because if you do it maybe all of us including me will be sad because we lose our friend . Even though we never meet and we just reply each other comment i will support you always . As you are Park_YoonJin are my friend ^^
geuranimalhe #7
Don't lost hope, dear friend! I maybe can't understand the pain that you were going through, but just keep on fighting. Love will found its way.
sleepingprince #8
Hope that everything will be fine soon. Hang in there. At the meantime take good care of yourself . You need to be strong and have a positive mind set to overcome this obstacle. Show to your parents that they can believe in you and that you will not be affected negatively .. All the best
natsuki13 #9
Hang in there. I kinda understand but I'm still in a closet. Just know you have a lot of support from us
jeansuntang #10
Me too…I'm afraid my parents know I'm les…Not that I have a gf but still…
I don't have a really good relationship with my parents either…
School work and friends, it has all became a pressure and stress
I've tried suiciding before but…just try hard, hang on, things will get better
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