hi guys, bea is still alive.

though i'm not writing lately i frequently log in and look around. i'm more active as a reader you can say. logging in tonight i've noticed this is the day. one year ago today i've joined AFF as too-kyute.

the "big reveal": yep, it's not the first time i've joined the site. i've had another account which i don't use now. i'd decided to step up as "too-kyute" because last year (around March I guess) i've started to write /boyxboy stories. (the other account was filled with hetero stories, idolxoc ones.)

it wasn't an easy decision back then. i was actually terrified because hey, i've known no gay people and i'm a girl what do i know about that kind of love? but then i've begun writing and things went smoothly (and last but not least my love for baekchen was pretty much an obsession at that point i could write and i would have been over the moon and back that "yes baekchen love each otheeerrr"). yes, i didn't really like my first input. but i enjoyed it and the response was supportive. (i'm so thankful to those people who commented on the story mentioned "Off Chance" back then and were nice to tell me to go on. you've made me who i am as too-kyute today!)

now i have ten-something stories and hundreds of subscribers. it took a single year and i've made friends, evolved as a writer. i've had a lot of up and downs. but i've learnt and experienced so many things.

so here i am, writing this blogpost to say THANK YOU to each and every one of you who has had commented on my stories so far, subscribed, asked me "how are you" in PM or i could be lucky enough to make a poster for them etc. not one writer works only for themselves, the people, the readers and their enjoyment is always there as a purpose and reason among all. you've made me really happy with your support but i hope i've made you even happier with my stories. *bows*

jeez, i sound like i'm saying goodbye... actually i don't. i've just seen my 1st year giraffe-icon on my profile page with the red gift box and i got so emotional. i remembered all you guys and your useful comments and i feel so touched daaaamn. :D

i don't know when i will return to writing stories but i can say i definitely I WILL.
yes, i'll write more chansoo.
yes, i'll continue writing baekchen THIS SHIP IS MY LIFFFE
i will totally be that delusional fangirl 10+ years who still writes baekchen fanfictions even though both of them are married and have ten kids from different women cue proud face
and yes, i'll finish "far far away but close close to you" in your and my lifetime. (i'm working on that story as unbeliavable as it sounds... just life is standing in front of me and blocking my way fml)

i hope your life is going fine and enjoy your time here on AFF.
when i return, i'll make a grande entrance and we'll have a blast! ^^

once again thank you to the workers of the site and to the lovely people here:

xoxo, bea