Orayt guys.

The title is self explanatory, right? So you already havr an idea on what this post will be about.

If you don't want it, you could skip reading this and be on you merry way.

But if you are delulu like meee...

Feel free to continue!

There, I guess I have given enough warnings. ;)

So I am here to share my feelings and thoughts at the latest public appearance of EXO, especially kaisoo, in Shenzhen. I can't seem to remember the event name ugh. Sorry, dearies. :(

Anyway...

So first. The airport pics.

The first I saw were of kai's. I don't know if you guys still look at places where they are posted but kai looks like , tbh. I think I've mentioned this to one of you here in another blog...

Okay, back to my point.

The guy is in a wheelchair and he still has his crutches. His face is covered in a mask and yet with just his eyes, i could already tell that he's feeling like . Sigh

And then i saw soo's pics and they seem fine to me. He looks fine from the photos i saw so i leave pondering on the airport pics to you. :)

Then at the red carpet...

*drumroll*

Gifs and pics of kaisoo with a sandwiched yixing in the middle of them is getting pretty viral in tumblr.

Ya know why?

Bec kai is doing his infamous 'soo staring' even though he is not the one talking (since it's our unicorn) but even from the pic, i could feel tension oozing from them (ya know? Our delulu feels activating at this point) and to add on top of that, soo is pretty much ignoring jongin with the face of i-kno-u-lookin-at-me-but-i-aint-lookin-at-u-bish

Hmmm...

And then after their perf, some kind of ment...

From the previos shows they did with nini in crutches, who was the one who was holding them for him when he's seated? Or who was the one who takes a chair for nini to sit on?

Yeah? Yeah??

It has been soo baby right?

We've seen tons of photos for that and that has what has been fueling our kaisoo feels lately because soo is being the caring wife friend that he is.

But last night, guess what? Nini had to ask soo to hold his crutches for him when before, soo does that all by himself automatically like it's a reflex action. And when soo took it, he has this kind of being-ur-mic-holder-isnt-enough-u-make-me-ur-slave-bish look.

Now what can I say abt this?

First, I've srsly been waiting for another public appearance since lotte secret night.

Why?

Bec im so curious on how kaisoo will interact after the dating news blew off.

Assuming that everything is true and soo is just nini's bff, i was expecting him to act like usual. I mean, there still have been kaisoo moments even before the news broke out and nini is alrrady allegedly dating. This might've shoved down my throat that kaisoo is a brotp and im a huge crazy stupid delulu for shipping them romantically lalalala. I won't be surprised if soo will act clingier and be beside nini all the time bec goodness knows how bad the backlash of the news was for the new "couple".

I mean, that's what bffs do, right? They back each other up and support each other no matter what happens bec we-bffs-5ever.

But nope.

Soo has been looking less than amused with his bff during the lotte concert.

Okay, so maybe by that time, he's still shocked and quite upset with the news so i've been on the watch still and then bam! The perf in shenzhen happened.

Ohohohoho

So what does this mean?

I strongly believe that our squishy baby soo (he's looking squishier rn and if someone tells him he's fat ill fight you!!! lol) is at the very least, upset.

Why though? I have a few guesses.

- chanbaek pissed him before the perfs and he can't suppress his satansoo coming out

- nini prob hidden his gf fr him and he was surprised abt the news

- sm told him to back off fr taking care of nini

- he knew something bad that nini did and he doesn't approve

- KAISOO IS DAMN REAL YOU GUYS FCKIN SM DESTROYED OUR SHIIIIP NO KA***A* HAPPENING

okay, so my first guess is not really plausible bec soo is known to be the good at repressing his feelings and if chanbaek pissed him, they would've been hurt already lol

If nini hid his gf, why would he do that? He and soo are bffs right? Why would he hide something that big to his bff? Shouldnt he be proud of his girl, at least to his friends?

If sm told him to stop mothering on his bff, why would nini gve him his crutches when he has 7 more members who would want to help him as well. Why does it always have to be soo?

What cud be tht sumtin that nini did? What cud it be for soo to ahow that he is very much upset even on stage? Wont that be on the personal level only and heck, we know that kaisoo has always been the backstage couple and if people won't look closely, they would miss their interaction and they have always been chummy chummy with each other.

Well, lastly. Who wouldn't be upset if your bae apparently dates someone else who is not you? Who would be happy that your bae has alleged kissing photos in a pool and stayed in a hotel with someone not you for 2 days? Who would be happy if your bae injured himself bec he went on a skiing date with his alleged gf? Why would he do things for nini if he's still heartbroken with what his bae did?

Lol told you im delulu :p

But really. It's concerning that soo seems to be not himself this past perfs. He may be not really the most happy one on stage but he isn't looking sad or upset either. He's mostly quiet and attentive and smiley and he doesn't ignore nini like that.

I miss his smiles, his happy smiles more bec it seems to be lacking lately. And then there are times that he's looking sad :( why baby, why? :( he has finished filming and they're getting days off now that they're not that busy so he could rest but i dunno :(

Im saying this as a kyungsoo biased and i just want soo to be constantly happy. His smiles have always been enough for my day to brighten and knowing that he's disturbed abt something, i want it gone so he could keep on being happy. If his friendship with nini is on the rocks, chanbaek is still there. From what ive read, those three are the closest, chansoo even more, and i hope those two dorks would stay by soo and make him smile though they might get hurt at some point. Lol

What im afraid of is that this might be the start of the kaisoo ship sinking...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

but with how things are going, i dunno if we could see kaisoo interactions anymore. Our poor delulu hearts. :(

At first, i wasn't really thinking abt this bec of the fact that kaisoo are close friends so we will see some interactions still. Lets just have our delulu minds make it into something... Delulu. Lol

But as i see it, their friendship has also been affected by the 'news' for some reason and they're just not the same. :(

What even... :(

I dont want my ship to sink you guysss

I know you don't want that too

As much as i want things to be cleared up, we could only guess and speculate and theorize :(

Ive been holding on until now and yeah, i need you guys who are delulu myself to keep me together (lol so dramatic)

I dont want to say this but it really feels like our ship is getting thrown side by side by harsh waves and i dunno what to do to keep it sailing still, in whatever form. Be it platonic or romantic. I just want to see kaisoo more bec what they have is beautiful and inspiring. I dont wanna see two people be estranged bec of what could possibly be a ploy of their own company to cover up they cant control :(

Yep, delulu thoughts so you shouldn't take them srsly bec this is personal opinion, yeah? And id like yo know yours too, if you've reached up to here. :)