Taking a break from writing
I'm in no condition to write and I need some time off to sort myself out and recover from the shock and heartbreak.
It's funny cuz I don't even know these people yet I can't help but be this affected. I'm happy for Kai, I really am. I'm not a fan who feels like my biases belong to me or whatever and I don't feel the least bit betrayed by the news. But what I do feel right now is overwhelming sadness for my otp and I have to deal with this sense of complete loss.
I'm sort of grateful that I finished What a beautiful mess before the kaistal news hit because I would feel so bad not only for myself but also for the readers if I didn't get to finish it. And about No Strings, I actually finished writing the first chapter (complete with author's notes) a day before the news was revealed. So that's something to be happy about too. ( I will post it after this)
So I guess I'll have more time to spend on studying and my upcoming exams.^^ It's a decent distraction and I need to stay optimistic lest I drive myself bonkers...
I'm not saying I'm leaving, I just won't be writing. My head and my heart isn't in the best place atm. When I'm done nursing my broken kaisoo-loving heart back to working condition, then I'll pick up right where I left off with my stories. The question right now is how long. A few weeks, a few months... I honestly don't know. BUT I will still be on here, checking/replying to comments and pms, reading a few stories, just basically lurking.
Thank you for understanding and for the words of support ppl have been giving me. It's helped me a great deal. <33
To all other ppl going through the same thing I am, all I can give you is a virtual hug. Hope everyone feels better!
/hugs/
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