So yeah~ The news was out this morning and many of my friends asked me if I'm okay and what's in my head about this news. I wasn't able to answer it properly because I have mixed feelings. I mean, my heart feels like they're breaking apart and I don't know which piece should I follow. But aside from the pain that I'm feeling, I'm actually happy for him. Doesn't it mean he found happiness inside her? If some of you know me in twitter, you guys might see how I've said many times the reason I fell for Jongin;

"When I met him, I realized that happiness can take the shape of human, not just feelings."

His existence is enough to make me happy. And when he's happy, my happiness is doubled. And what makes him happy?

His choice.

As a fan, we might get hurt by the fact that we're only a fan. You guys might feel the same way too. But I just want to remind you that in order to be happy, you need him to be happy too. It's okay if you want to take a break from listening to EXO's song, to open twitter just to find out people talking about him, to read fanfictions about him, even to open your photo gallery filled with photos of him, you're allowed to. You're not being unfaithful. You just need time. We need time. I do feel my heart clenched a little bit everytime I see his pictures but things will get better, right? 

Don't be sad. Let's be happy for him. We have each other. Don't you ever think that you're suffering. Every fan would feel the same way. 

For Jongin, congratulations dear! I really hope you'll take care of each other well. Don't forget that we're always be there behind you when you look back because we will be supporting you.