I'm in a depression state in disguise
I've been telling my girlfriend and friends that I've a perfect way to deal with stress, problems, or whatever that lead to depression.
I did.
I had been smile to cover my worries. And I laughed to my heart content to feel happy, they said if you sad you'll get better if you laugh.
It did.
I hug my girlfriend tight to make sure that I'm not alone, I keep touching her to make me sure that she's real.
She does. And she loves me.
All my past investment doesn't work the way I wanted. I'm having a trouble with my investors and it has been three damn months pains dealing with them and the lawyers.
And I have a ty business partner. Who's I can't change until every problems are settled, I put everything under his name and now he's been very depressed without thinking about how's my position.
If I run to my mother, she'll ask me my marriage problem. And things will lead to another fight.
If I run to my sister, she doesn't understand.
I run to no one but God, I cried.
Sometimes I run to my girlfriend with a bit stories, I hug her to keep myself sane and to avoid any kind of suicidal thoughts.
I told her that; any women my age, who's facing a problem like mine alone is going to commit suicide.
She told I'm strong.
I am.
But, sometimes like today. I just someone to help me miraculously and tell me; there, done. You can pay it later after you're back on your feet. Keep your foot together buddy. All is well.
Or a simply give back my business partner to his logical way is back is good enough.
Or a simple 'all is well' is good enough.
At least I know I'll survive tomorrow too.
And I'm not alone.
At least...
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