Anxiety and Self Hate playing their games.
YO,
I had an anxiety attack about an hour ago and am still suffering with the after effects, I am so anxious and self hate that had been doing so well seems to have relapsed.
All over my ing hair and I feel so stupid and pathetic over this like I know it can be easily changed in a few days, but my brain is telling me how ugly I am and that I am the most useless in the whole ing world.
I sent out a plea for help and luckily two people sent me a message one being an ex who I am still close to, the two people spoke with me for a while (one up to an hour) before they all fell asleep as it was already 1am at that time. It is currently 2:27am and I am still dealing with that stupid self hate voice screaming all sorts of crap. I know I shouldn't listen to it but it is really hard when your anxiety is also fighting with you.
I really am useless.
Great.
Sorry for being such a burden to everyone *sigh*
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