Hey,

I kinda went to college yesterday very stressed and anxious, but I found out when I arrived that all my teachers were not in due to either being sick or being on a course...do you know how angry I got because I travel far and if I had known I wouldn't have bothered to go. I went to my classes and left after like the first 30 mins for English since I couldn't be bothered to stay in the room for the full 1hr 30mins. I went and did photography instead- I have offically finished my project all I have left to do is the final piece plan which I shall be doing today...thank god and I am the only one who's finished out of the whole class. 

Last night I showed my mum my work and she turned round and told me that I should have done the English work I needed to do because Photography isn't important....its my exam project...E-X-A-M meaning I can't just not do it, It is important whereas the english is not. 

I then told her I didn't want to teach English anymore, and that I was hoping to get a degree in Photography in Fashion etc. She turned round and gave me the look of hatred and told me she was disappointed in me.... 

it kicked off my anxiety and I felt like . I couldn't sleep the whole night and now I have to face a full day of college, I don't feel up to it and I am just praying that my teacher for English is off again.