ive never been good in making blogs

ive never been good in making friends (either online/in real life)

ive never been quite good in anything and i feel such a failure sometimes

ive never receive the gratitude hence i never felt the surge of confidence in me

ive never felt accepted anywhere i go (sometimes i feel that with my own family)

i thought i went through the puberty era already but the horrible feeling of not being accepted is coming back to me

i thought that i would pass through this phase quickly but i think its coming back

ive been thinking a lot these past few days

when other people have problems, i thought it was a good idea to interfere (because heck they are my friends) and finish the problem quickly but they see me as someone who doesnt know their boundaries and i just wanted everything to be solved (i hate problems)

i think im not being appreciated (is that so wrong?)

sometimes i just apologize for no reason at all because i think its my second nature

i hope everything will get better soon