Hello,

Well my boss kinda fired me - I can go back when I am ready he said- but I am no longer working there. Thank God for that. 

And with Photography add a few more sleepless nights and hard work to be told it isn't enough, I am legit wanting to kill the teacher because she is trying to suggest that I am not putting enough effort in and that I am not working hard- urm excuse me like I work ing hard to get my grades. I got my course work grade back and I got a B+ they said they believe it is actually an A+ but are not sure so they marked me down... don't mind the B+ though still a damn good grade. 

On Tuesday I got myself worked up over English and Photography and ended up having a massive panic attack during lunch (none of my friends even noticed and I was sat right next to them urg) then I went to English still having one, my teacher came over and asked for the homework and I just burst into tears- right there and everyone suddenly looked at me and it didn't help. My teacher told me it was okay that I had till today to do the work (haven't managed to do it). But I literally don't want to set foot in the room. 

After that I went to Photography feeling awful and the teacher was a once again and it just topped off how mentally I was feeling, so I went home feeling like and passed out after trying to do an assessment due the next day because I forgot about it... 

Went to college on Wednesday feeling like I just wanted to go home as I wasn't mentally ready to face English and Photography, only managed the first two classes which were Communication and Culture, and Tutor. I went home at lunch cause I couldn't bring myself to face those two classes because I just knew my mental state would only get worse. 

Not really doing much better today to be honest and I already feel anxious and my hands are already shaking so I think I might be having a panic attack today... I only have English and Photography today but I honestly don't wanna go... 

*cries*

Some of my photography(Tell me what you think)

 From my exam unit ^ Now the rest are either from my coursework unit or just some I have done.