Emotionally drained~~
I can't really express my frustration or feelings on other social media sites since I have friends and family there so I'll just do it here~~
I'm miserable. Probably more miserable than I've ever been in my entire life.
University is hell on earth basically. Growing up it was so easy being the "smart kid". Never had to study a day in my life and that's what got me into a super good university but now... now I've become one of the dumb kids (sorry if that sounds harsh or pretentious, I'm quite the opposite). I'm failing nearly everything this semester already.
Intelligence was the one thing that gave me self-worth and that's being stripped away.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm constantly distracted, I cry all the time, I lash out at people around me - I'm a mess and I hate everything. But I can't tell anyone. I can't leave school for fear I won't be readmitted from poor academic performance and just... from the fear that I'll never get the motivation to even reapply.
I can't let my family down... I'm the first to go to college and everyone is rooting me on but I don't know if I can do it.
I'm stuck.
I'm miserable and stuck in my worst nightmare.
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