I never seem to write blog posts and don't know if I should get into it. I'd like you guys to know how I feel about my writing a little bit more, you know? ;^^

Well first of all I'm the most random author ever and can't complete a chaptered fic to save my life but for some reason always start them up. I need to stick to oneshots!!! Only oneshots!!! If I want to write a long 10k+ word story I'll do it all in one! I'm only just starting to drum this into my head.

Secondly, if you read any of my fics prior to Shut Your Eyes (I actually think my stories only started getting a little bit decent after Ice Skating, but I can read Shut Your Eyes with minimal wanting to gag in comparison to the rest) please read a few more recent ones while you're at it because 1. you deserve more than the pain I have caused you 2. My writing has developed by miles in the last two years and I really don't want those thesaurus-overdose, headache-inducing horrors to be my main label LOLOFLDk oh god they were so bad.

WHY IS SMILING EYES MY MOST POPULAR ONE IT MAKES ME WANT TO /BLEED/ OUT OF MY EYES

MY DRABBLE DUMPS EUHGHEG GOD

MUSE???????? PROBABLY MY WORST ONE OF ALL WHY WAS THAT EVER A THING

I started AFF at 13... the only ones that still exist are the ones aged 14 and onwards... and I will be turning 16 in May time. Which means I'm still pretty young as a writer but not as young, soon, and I try really hard to seem well-informed in what I'm writing about. Or write totally from experience. Or a mishmash of both. So what I'm really trying to say is I hope it's just onwards and upwards from here and thank you so much for being so kind about my tragic old writing style even before knowing how much of a young'n I was lmao ;;; I came across some harsh group criticism on twitter once of my fics that still leaves a bit of a scar just because of how young, distraught and impressionable I was, but then again they had no idea of that - as much as my confidence still isn't really there it did really spur me on to improve. So this is a kind of thank you!

I'd love to keep writing for RV especially in scenarios very creative and unique, so once the exam hurdle slides away for a month or so during the summer I have lots of long oneshot plans. I'd love most of all to write enough to bury my 2014 fics in the dust. I'd love to replicate what I did with Ice Skating, if I can, in my other fics because that's one of the only ones I actually quite like ;;^;; SO MUCH SELF-CRITIQUE. I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to this. Most of my fic posting delay is actually due to checking and editing and editing and checking lol, I'm sorry.

Getting comments and feedback from something I've scrambled together from personal experiences of mine is the most worthwhile thing ;;;;;;;; Posting here has done leaps and bounds for me and I really can't thank anyone who gave me a small bit of attention, any at all, enough. Even writers I absolutely idolised are people I now think of as friends thanks to just reaching out ;_;^

LOVE YOU GUYS. (I've entered the RedVelvetFics contest twice too so there's more to come from me! if I can get a move on, that is ><)