She’s too busy being insecure about herself that she can’t even notice how beautiful she is. I hope one day she will actually realize that :) but for now I just have to be her personal alarm clock that always remind her that she’s beautiful and that she should be more confident about herself. Still can’t believe we just have a month left. I don’t know what I should do with this girl. I hate the fact that I’m already kind of showing her my protective and clingy side when I’m not even sure how she feels towards me. She has a lot of friends which intimidates me quite a lot. Because for all I know is that in the whole university she is my top most priority. I might actually be crazy and this is like one of the side effects HAHAHAHA. I like how I can read what she’s thinking most of the time but when it comes to me, I can’t read her anymore. 

I enjoy her company, I seriously do. I don’t get attached to people this easily but there’s just something with this girl. I am so afraid that one day someone’s gonna hurt her and I wont be able to cheer her up. But I’m more afraid that that someone is going to be me. I always panic when I see her teary-eyed. I just want to hold her tight and say everything is going to be fine. Its just that I’m too afraid that when I do something she would be uncomfortable about it so I try and hold it back. She’s like a little sister to me but not really hahahaha :) Like you hurt her, I hurt you double. Like when I hear her say she likes someone or she might like someone I go on guard mode. Like I’m not just going to give her to anyone. She’s really too precious, like a crystal I guess :) 

I really am gonna miss this girl. Specially we wont know what could happen in a year. I hope that I could tell her my condition soon enough. Yeah I hope when she hears the news she won’t cry. I just want her to be happy. Simply because I love her.

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