okay, you can ignore this if you want but i would like some support because this is making me go through a really hard time.

a guy that i've known for a while (i call him joshie) recently asked me what i think about long distance relationships since he lives in arkansas in the us and i live in sydney in australia so i of course said it depends on trust then he asked me if i trust him then he was like 'you know where i'm going with this so...?' and omg guys my heart broke. i dont know if i like him or not and if i want this relationship to go further but i cant handle long distance ones since i want to be able to hold his hand and kiss him on the cheek (haven't lost my first kiss yet) but i really know that i broke his heart because he even told me and i feel guilty and he told me that he hasn't had his first kiss yet and he wants to wait 3 and a half years just so that he can have that kiss with me and i said that we can stay close friends and until then, we'll be really close but i might change my mind and i might start dating him but omg he's the first guy to tell me that he likes me and asked me out even though its long distance. >///<

im just so confused and we promised our first kiss for each other but i really dont want this to affect us and i think i really like him but i dont know about the whole 'he lives halfway across the world' thing.

to be honest, after typing this and talking to joshie i really cant wait for the next 3 and a half years to be over <3 ~

AND A WHOLE OTHER ISSUE HAS ARISED!! the friend, paris, who suggested me to him has been angry at joshie since he apparently has 'dropped her like a bag of ' since he started talking to me and now i feel guilty for butting in on their relationship because they were originally close pen pals before we started talking 3

im just so confused and sad :(