......hi

/dodges tomatoes/

I'M SORRY I KNOW IT'S BEEN MORE THAN HALF A YEAR!!!!

So basically I've been going back and forth on actually talking about this, because I don't want to make an update and get people's hopes up but I also feel so guilty about disapearring without a trace....but I thought I might as well make this and maybe just maybe people would see it and I would still feel awful about it but slightly less so.

Why haven't I updated To Be Loved? Well, to be honest, I don't like where the story went. I had so many ideas when I started the story and I wanted so bad to do absolutely everything so I tried to. And it became a mess. I wanted to add bands I knew nothing about and I wanted to make characters and relationships that I had never heard of before and if you read the beginning, you can tell just how all over the map I was. By the time I finally decided what I wanted to do with the story, I had already posted 9 chapters and it felt like I was too far in to change anything even though I regretted more than half of the decisions I had made.

Basically, by this point I've made three choices for myself:

1) go back and rewrite the entire story and try to finish it earlier than originally planned /I had wanted to write nearly 30 chapters but I'm just not commited enough for that

2) try to finish with how it is now

3) scrap it

Option three is not what I want to do, but also what I might do. Truly, I want to rewrite it because I can't imagine trying to continue writing when I basically want to forget I ever created the first couple chapters. The thing is... I've got the most insane schedule there is. 

Well, not the busiest ever, but the most busy I've ever been. I was placed in two choirs this year, I got a part in the school musical, I'm still dancing around 13-15 hours a week, and my parents expect me to have straight A's, along with doing Girl Scouts, NCL, getting confirmed, and I'm taking my driving test in less than a month. So I'm usually getting home around 8-9 every night and crashing. Not to mention we still have spotty wifi.

I know these are all just excuses, and I should really just take responsibility for what I wrote and fix it because so many people are following that story now (literally 416 subs like I haven't updated in so long why are you still in this) but I just haven't gotten around to it.

So, probably once musical ends, I'm going to try to get myself to delete the chapters and restart. All the pairings will be the same, but it probably won't include Super Junior or BAP and I'll replace them with bands I know better. I'll try to make it more fluid and understandable and not something I want to ignore.

I'm sorry for taking so long to inform you on what's happening, but here it is.

Thank you for being so sweet and supportive and patient with me.