What's up?

I want to know what is up with my readers, with my AFF friends here and just basically everyone whoever happened to read my post.

What is up with you guys? How are you doing? Are you okay? Are you busy? Or..are you always here everyday but just basically silent? Hmmm I am wondering and at the same worried. I have lots of you here that I haven't talked to in ages. I apologize sincerely for that. I apologize for all the comments (both in stories and blogs) that I fail to answer. Seriouslyyyy, I am so sorry. I know that lots of you get upset with that. But always know guys that I read them all. I read every single of them even though sometimes it was late, because oh well.. I log in late. But I read all of them and if I am going to be honest, the only thing that motivates me to write are your comments and constant messaging of how is my well-being or how's life and even questions on when would I update. Those messages really make me happy and motivated. Because of those messages, I was able to know that someone still wants to read from me. 

I am also happy that I still reach 200+ subbies (in one shots) though sometimes it takes a bit longer (than how it was before, sometimes I got 200 overnight) --(oh well, I am not saying this to you to show off, it is because I want to be transparent)..but I am happy because I know that there are still 200++ people willing and still enjoying to read KM fanfics, especially from me (unless they don't have a choice because lots of authors are not writing anymore, hehehehehe).

Anyways, but why even though I got good number of subs, why still ...silent readers...are silent readers? Or even sometimes, the usual active ones, still...opted to just read and sub and voila, we're done!!

Hmmmm....

Are you guys busy that dropping a feedback worth a MINUTE of your time would just be such a waste for you?

But... I am also busy. But I can drop a massive 4k++ words update for you guys. I think dropping a feedback won't hurt. I sacrificed HOURS for you guys but a minute for me, you can't? Oh come on. It is utterly disappointing. 

Before, that is somehow alright with me. Kind of disappointing, still. But I can manage. Since I have lots of sources for my feels. 

But right now, the only source of motivation will be you.

Only your comments.

Nothing else.

Also, it is quite ironice to see people complaining with lack ofupdates but when a certain update comes, they don't even drop a single appreciation. Hmmmmm. Are we updating to the wind? To whom are we updating? 

Also, I am not some kind of author who talks openly about dropping feedbacks but don't even comment to other stories they are subbed too. When I read someone else's work, I drop comment. I upvote if I like it even more. I show appreciation because I know what it feels to receive such thing. So to authors out there, would it be disgustingly hypocrite to ask comments from readers but you as a reader, don't even practice it? LOL

Anyways, this is not a rant. In the end, I am still curious on how are you doing in your life. I am still curious what makes you keep coming back on this site?

Everyone has their limitations. Just recently, I was put in the bad light here in AFF. Now I wonder, are these people not subbing and commenting to my fics because they think, I am really that some kind of monster human? LOL. Was the issue last time affected on what I post here in AFF? Because apparently, I see lots of shippers who only get to see the other side openly curse about me. Oh well, shrugs. Can't do anything about me. Hehehehehehe. Again, everyone has their own limitations. What happened last time really set me on not writing anymore, that I am just going to finish my remaining fics. But as how things go on, I might not finish them at all.

Anyways, I hope everyone is doing great ^^

Love y'all <3

Polin ^^