I`ve been on hiatus. . . but I`m left with no where to rant, especially when I don`t want a certain person to see it.

And ~ I pretty much know that no one will read this, but I honestly need to write this down somewhere before I become insane.

WARNING:

DO NOT READ IF YOU DON`T WANT TO HEAR

ANY CHEESY/CORNY STUFF >_<

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So, there`s this story in my life. I want to call this story a love story- but no, I wasn`t in love.

This story would be labeled romance- but no, nothing was mutual.

But anyways, this main character in this story. He`s such a bad person. I honestly wish I knew how to delete him from my life.

Yeah, so to put in simple words. There`s this guy I really liked- but he pretty much trampled over my feelings.

He always made my heart skip half a beat, if not, a whole entire heartbeat.

He always did the cutest things ever to me- that I now wish he never did. I will treasure all of that forever, but right now, it`s just enough to keep me from moving on. 

I never believe he cared for me, but I always hoped that he might one day.

But I hate him for who he is- the flirt he is, the loser he is.

I love his hugs- even when I very clearly know he goes around hugging every other girl.

I loved just seeing him- even when it meant absolutely nothing for him to see me.

I loved it when he yelled out my name just to say hi- even though I knew he was just loud and sociable.

I miss when he used to push me when he walked by me- even though he just enjoys toying with me like that.

If- he was a normal person, I would've thought that he returned my feelings. But he wasn`t, isn`t and won`t be.

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To: That bad Oppa whom I hate to bits and pieces,

Thanks for all you did to me- I want to say I learned through smiles and tears. 

But now that you and your girl are official on facebook- and now that I`ve heartbroken and cried over it.

I think I`m done- I`ll back off so you can enjoy your life.

Don`t you dare say  "harro" to me.

Don`t you dare come give me a hug.

Don`t you dare even give me a look.

I`m going to push you far away. . . even if it hurts for me to do that, that`s for the best, right?

I`ll tell myself that I won`t regret because you`re not worthwhile.

I`ll rip to shreds that confession letter that I spent a night writing, the confession letter that`s pages and pages long.

Yes, I`ll swallow all my feelings I have and ever had for you- you`ll never know everything you caused me.

Because I want to you to be happy with her,

(Even though I couldn`t bring myself to say Congrats. . . )

I`m sorry too.

I`ll miss you- I just know; after you graduate.

I`ll say this just once even though it`s not even true.

I love you.

Now get out of my life, you bad, bad, bad, bad, bad person.