In freshmen year, I've lost important people in my life. No, they aren't dead. I'm just not all best friends with them anymore. There were many disagreements and more. I was 'cut' out of the 'group'. I am not going to put 'why' because that would be unfair since 'they' wouldn't be here to type up their side of the story so I would not do say mines. Anyways. I just want to admit this. I miss them. A lot. I did have some past issues with some of them but I still miss them. Sometimes, I have urges to just sit at their table. Sometimes I have urges to come into their conversation of they talk anywhere near me. I still have old habits of calling them by their nicknames. But that's at times I do. Hmmm... I wouldn't ever tell them I miss them though.. I feel like they wouldn't believe me if I ever did tell them.. Or I'll just make a fool out if myself in front of them.. 

Sigh***

I do wish to be back to good friends at least. When you could just talk about anything instead of talking when you need something. But I guess this is how it is. And I shouldn't be complaining. Well there you have it.. me missing my old best friends. . Because inside of my heart, I never stopped feeling like that towards them.