what 2015 did to me!!
2015 had been very dark for me especially the starting 4-5 months!! I have gone through some life changing and it had literally thrown me into a very dark pit which i never thought I would fall into and i never thought would ever come out off!!
I was so gone that there were days when i would just at the system at work and just be screamin on the inside because i felt that buzzing.. Like there are a million voices in my head that wouldn't stop!!
i had gone through alone because it was not something I wanted to discuss with family and it wasn't something I was proud of to share with friends!!
But there came a point when I NEEDED/WANTED someone/anyone to talk it out with because the rate i was going i was sure i was gonna go insane if i continued..
That's when I opened up to some of my very close friends here on AFF.. Yes!! THEY MEAN A LOT TO ME!! thanks to them I was finally able to see light and realize how i was wasting my time over something that was not even worth it!!
They gave me courage and hope that I could make it through!! The most touching moment was when I shared my problem with my bestie and she reacted so coolly about it and that had me change for good.. Though there are still times when I still get depressed like I wanna shut myself away from anything and anybody!
2015 had been my life changer!! WOAH!! What a year that was lol XD
All wasn't bad though.. I met some great people on here (who i think have already lost too cuz iz very bad at keeping in contact)
I started working on my baking skills!! I started to write a little (although my stories have taken a turn into the darkville) and sometimes I get so depressed because I can't write!! I feel like I have lost myself and feel so suffocated like writing was my only outlet and now I have so many things in my mind but I seem to be not able to put all that in paper and its so frustrating!!
I don't feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside anymore like I used when I see romantic movies or when I write a romantic scene!! Yeah still recovering..
BUT I won't let the past drag me down and I am gonna turn 2016 the year for me!! Imma get my life sorted and do all the stuff i was not able to earlier!!
Hoping this year will be very bright and full of happiness for all you guys!!
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