Hi guys!

Hope you're still doing fine and already in mid- or at least-pre-preparation for Christmas... Yes, it's been a while. I feel a bit weird saying that because even if I haven't put up nearly anything during the past at least two months, I've been here. I was reading stories I have interest in (soon I'll put up a fic rec some sort of, you can anticipate), talked with a few people, commented here and there so it's not like I was away completely. I admit I was invisible though, just quietly searching around.

I don't know if you want to hear my reasons or not. (If you don't it's fine, just click away from here. If you want to hear, thank you for staying. /hugs) But I want to share with you what is happening to me lately because 1) it's not just about me and 2) I want you to believe me when I say I didn't update because I had no ideas or was just simply lazy.

I've had a really rough semester and half-year overall. I became exhausted both physically and mentally, falling in and out of sickness(es) and whatnot. I've never been such a confident person, I have self-doubt since basically childhood and recently it got just stronger. It's not your fault - don't feel like for a second you caused it. It has nothing to do with AFF or fic writing. Things had just happened and my mood went quite downhill... along with everything else. I've struggled with school, social life, friends and even myself. This is not a happy period and I hope none of you experience it.

I'm not writing this to make you feel sad, feel like you're the problem or to get sympathy from you, as an excuse for being absent. I just really want you to know that I myself feel bad about being away and that 1) I'm still here and continue being here and 2) I'll post the next chapter of "Far, Far Away but Close, Close to You" along with the rest of the story this week and the next. (Get ready~)

Thank you for the tons of subscription & nice comments on my stories!
Your encouragement and patience amaze me. I'll try my best to repay you all for your kindness. :)

Until next time
xoxo, bea