So this is an appreciation post for my dearest, imanfya. lol. Dearest. A word I would never describe of you omg.

So, i need to say to you, iman, that im sorry for doing all those y things to you in school, and i'm sorry for sometimes thinking to grab a knife and stab you multiple times. you know we're both psychos.

how we met was not exactly the way i've always met a friend. but somehow, we were at the right place, at the right time, you, Khad, itik, Aqilah, Fiqah, Nuyen and Hanim. All of the memories we shared, man. The code names, Kembang, garfu, onn, bangkok, oh gad. Do u remember that time when Kak Aqilah brought a phone and we pranked her, saying a senior confiscated it? Do you remember bad-mouthing every single living soul in the school, like we were perfect?

Do you remember getting settled? Those late night conversations with Kak Adlina and Kak Dania? Syasya's birthday suprise and how she cried?  The never-ending bullies? Polaroid seeking, wood cutting, wood wrapping, and lots of maggi. Going to Khad's house, everything? 

I'm sorry I was such a coward, ignoring you guys like that, i was selfish, i thought if leaving the group meant no bullies, i would do so, but then, i realized, without you guys, my life was  complete black and white. There weren't those little sparks or the rainbow i used to have when u guys was in it.

How i was a fool, the seniors are never going to stop bullying us, i've accepted that as a fact.

tbh, i think, you're the person i have most in common with. Swoglicious, Fine Bros, Bts, 1million dance studio, kitty, troye sivan, everything. 

And we're the horniest girls in the group, aren't we?

Laila has a face of a pig, she's a , a big bag full of , there's small , mediocre , micro , large , eiffel tower , do you remember that?

Ola, oli ku beri nama, saudara, saudari, cikeboom, cikeboom, and how syasya sang tht at the sing off.

Do u remember the ramadhan incident where u and Syasya didn't ing eat because of oli and wrote all those maleficent things at the ampaian, later to be caught and settled by her ing midget of a brother?

And when u cried, i swear i wanted to punch his face right then and hug your precious little head, shielding u from his ugly face, it ing shines anyway. I ing scowled when he told u and syasya off, i was like ' u crazy af'

i love you, iman, i really do, i love u more than i should, actually.

I'm sorry i have a weird way on showing my love tho. 

I want u to know that i know i've been taking u for granted, that i've been taking the8 for a bunch of problematic kids, but tbh, i think we're the only ones in our batch really having fun.

Oh, and did i mention that i saw u dance u motherchucker! I was smiling the whole way through, u looked so focus i swear i was going to laugh, but then again, it was just such a wonderful sight.

Do u remember all those conversations behind the building, and how we talk about family problems and our worries and stuff and it was just such a wonderful atmosphere, y'know? and right then, i knew i couldn't get more retards as a friend, because u've already filled tht place.

oKAY, so , Happy Birthday u fool.

i'm sorry i wrote this so late, i honestly wanted to write it at 12 yesterday but then mom was using the laptop so i was like, staying up i guess. I did, untill 3.30 am and mom said when was i going to sleep and i said, yeah sure, so i pretended to sleep, knowing how that was the only way she'd go to sleep. turns out, when i closed my eyes, i went to dreamland almost ing immediately.

DO YOU SEE HOW I WAS SO TIRED BUT STILL DID STAY UP FOR U, U .