So, i just enrolled in this new place to study, got new friends and of course, we go everywhere together. so this one time, i accompany her to get movies from our guy classmate. the guy classmate bring his friend. so we get the movies from him, chatted, and ate. towards the end, it was around the time we're supposed to go back to our hostel, the guy that came with my classmate, his friend came. 

guess what, he is handsome. quite my type. sad eyes, fair skin and cute. and he's younger by one year than me. my friend said that i changed the way i acted in front of him. when we walked back, my friend said, he's handsome. i was like "girlllll, u noticed it tooooo!!!!" but then she told me it was because she saw my reaction and she didnt even have eyes for guys because she already have the one. so she said the words. 

starting then i was having a crush on him. and i called him eye candy. but i still remembers my lost crush TT. okay. that's another story. i started calling him my eye candy and my friends starts telling my guy classmate that i want my eye candy's number. when in fact, i didnt. so he dont have it. .then the classmate's friend, we're in the same club(?) it's co-curricular activities. so when we were walking home yesterday, he asked my friend, is she the one that wanted his number, i was like"i dont asked for it!!who said that???" he said, i had his number, do you want it? well, no. if i have it i wont even have the guts to text him first. 

he insisted on giving me the number.then i said to him, give it through my friend then, and he did OMG. at the hostel, my friend PM-ed me his number. when i get to the study room to do our homework, she bugs me to text him. what girllllll....i dont wannaaaaaaa... then she wants me to do it because she doesnt want my history with the highschool crush to happen again. if she want to do it so much, i asked her to start the conversation, USING MY PHONE... then i was nervous to see if he will reply from an unknown number. i was starting to feel down when i saw him had read the message but havent replied yet. i deleted, and then he replied and i was like soooooo happy... but then his reply doesnt seem that warm, and i had revealed myself to him. and i wished i didnt even let my friend send the message to him in the first place. now i wish that we wont ever cross path in this place again.he's younger than me. he's just a mere crush. the crush i had on my highschool guy had been going on for four years. and i really effed up. i should go and console myself by studying.