I just realized recently that it's been a year since I posted Stuck to the Moon (STTM) and in three months (holy crap), it'd have been exactly another year since I posted The Coffee Shop Around the Corner (CSAC). And unfortunately, I haven't updated that in six months. Like other authors, I write my reasons as to why an update took so long with A/N's within said update. After so many months of no updates, I don't think any reader would want to read why to be honest. I've also been getting subscribers at random times for CSAC, so I thought I owed you at least this. LMAO so this is just gonna be my list of excuses.

I COMPLAIN HERE. YOU CAN SKIP THIS IF YOU WANT. (just read the first line of the paragraph to get the gist.)

First of all, as a Multimedia Specialist (makes graphics, photo, video), I had FOUR short films to shoot for my job during the time I posted Chapter 3 of CSAC. I was also assigned to make a huge tarpaulin for a special event (a bicentennary celebration) and it was killing Photoshop (it was so big okay) which was why I was able to post the chapter (it's even written in the A/N). The thing is, I wrote, directed and edited one of the short films and I absolutely  at execution under pressure, so there were lots of revisions. Not to mention, we had to create tons of collaterals (flyers, tarpaulins, etc) for my then-job (more about it later). I was also tasked to proofread a catalogue. It was completely draining that I couldn't concentrate on writing anything.

Second, after posting Chapter 3 of CSAC, I became so freakin' confused with my own timeline. I had CSAC and He Sees the Sun (HSTS) both outlined before I posted CSAC. But I'm forgetful when overwhelmed, so I don't clearly remember what I was thinking when I outlined both titles. Now, I'm doubly overwhelmed because the timelines feel so mixed up. I've asked my beta, Yun (sootemup) to look through it, but I really don't want to bother and/or pester her about it.

Third (and regarding the "then-job" previously), I resigned from my first job ever. After two and a half years. Early September, I had an interview for a completely different field because a friend of mine works there too. From a Multimedia Specialist (creating graphics, editing videos and taking photos) to a Content Developer (creates course outlines for classes). It's just a self-evaluation, but I have a bad case of social anxiety and I probably have bouts of depression. I tend to overcomplicate a lot of things. A simple interview numbs my mind to the point where I just want to cry. The only thing that kept me going through was the constant drilling of " it up, kid" I had growing up from my parents. (I was never allowed to throw tantrums growing up. Neither of my parents believe I have anxiety or depression, constantly being told "it's all in your head".) Okay, kind of deviating, but yeah. I was interviewed three different times in a span of three weeks and since I have social anxiety, I get nervous at least a week before the meeting. (My first interview was scheduled at 3PM, but I left the house at 8AM because I was scared I would get lost.) Basically, that's three different times. I get better with time, after getting used to the fact, but frankly, a week isn't enough to calm me down.

Fortunately, I got the job and I've almost worked there for a month now. I had a meeting about my progress with my work earlier, and I received a "Good Job!" (again, I had a week to get nervous and scared for this meeting) so I'm particularly satisfied with myself.

I've never truly forgotten about the series. I have a few paragraphs written for Chapter 4 of CSAC, but it's coming way too slowly. I don't plan on abandoning the series ever, because I like this project and I want to see it through. But for now, I can say that progress will be glacial at the very least.

YOU CAN SKIP THIS NEXT PART, TOO. I JUST TELL YOU HOW I BECOME AN INSPIRIT AND IGOT7.

Fourth, I have become both an Inspirit (September) and an Ahgase (December). Honestly, if it weren't for Channie (B1A4's Gongchan) hosting A Song For You, I would have never considered becoming an Inspirit. But 8 out of 10 times, I end up liking any group/band/singer if I like (or absolutely adore) the first song I listen to (it was the chorus of Man in Love, but it wasn't until they switched roles for Be Mine with Sungyeol's rapping and Myungsoo's high note, and thank God Love Letter was available on Spotify). It didn't help that they had a concert planned to the Philippines. (It was the same with BTS... I became an ARMY only to find out they're having a concert in a month or two. I slightly regret not being able to watch The Red Bullet, so I wasn't about to repeat that mistake for Infinite Effect.)

I find it extremely funny that I already knew Myungsoo (L) since Jiu. You have to know that before I came to KPOP, I started with Johnny's Entertainment (JE: NEWS, Arashi, Kanjani8, Hey!Say!JUMP, Kis-My-Ft2). So all the Japanese dramas and all that. Now, I waited to watch Jiu for Shirota Yu (because of The Prince of Tennis and Hana Kimi), Tabe Mikako (because of Yamada Taro Monogatari and Yasuko to Kenji, both of which had JE idols) and Kuroki Meisa (because of 1 Pound no Fukuin, which also had a JE idol). Apparently, Myungsoo was the title character. I thought he looked good but that the blond was quite fake. I didn't have the patience to wait for further episodes, so I didn't complete it. Then, because of Immortal Song 2: Im Jaebum special (with B1A4's Sandeul, who won that episode ♥), I took note of K.Will. His voice was quite soothing. So I searched for him, and saw Love Blossom, again, with Myungsoo (L) as the male lead. He came out of the car and I thought, 'Oh, he's cute' before completely shoving it to the side again. LMAO that might be why he looked so familiar when I saw him in AS4U. (This is basically a testament to my inability to fall in love because of someone's looks.) It's just really funny, okay.

Now, GOT7's always been at the corner of my fandom brain. I adore Jaebum's voice, especially in A. Unfortunately (back then), I didn't like Girls Girls Girls or Stop Stop It that much. I only watched Just Right because the color was neat and it reminded me so much of N*Sync's music video and I liked it. It wasn't quite enough for me to be a fan, but it stayed. I listened to Nigahamyeon once and it was catchy, but not quite memorable. I wasn't going to check out Confession Song, but there was a music video posted and it looked interesting. I watched it whole, and BAM!! I considered them more. I listened to their discography and found a few other songs I liked. I also watched their Weeky Idol episodes (always start with Weekly Idol, to be honest). But it wasn't until they released the Confession Song Free Dance Live that I frantically researched about them. So while I adored Jaebum's voice and considered him my "bias" during those times, it was Jinyoung who took the cake. ;ALSJKFLSKDGJJL he looked so pretty during the live that I just couldn't-- so I searched Tumblr blogs and fell in love. And here I am... in the middle of searching for GOT7 videos and variety shows and fanfiction because JINYOUNG GOD DAMN IT.

I THINK THIS IS A SAFE PLACE TO CONTINUE READING.

And because of [GOT7's] JINYOUNG GOD DAMN IT (found out he's really well read and he writes really freakin' well), the author!au series gets another title. Featuring JJ Project!!! Yaaaayyyy... OTL It probably won't be directly connected to any of the BTS series, but it might feature some cameos.

TL;DR: I'll still be working on all my fics, don't worry. Nothing will be abandoned, but updates will be quite slow. I've been stuck in a rut to be honest. I have a lot of plots and prompts but I can't seem to finish any of them. I'm sorry. I hope you understand. Thank you for waiting. I'll try to be back writing soon. ♥♥♥