Hey guys ^^

How's everybody? Did you guys enjoy  your break? What did you guys eat for Thanksgiving? Everyone still alive?

I know it's been a while since I updated or anything of that sort. But I do have something to say....

You guys remember how I said I was going to do a story about my love life and all that? I can't do that anymore. I realized something so important. I realized he's a and he doesn't deserve to even breathe the same air as me.

I was still inlove with him this year but that changed. On his birthday I bought him a drink and shyly gave it to him. He didn't even look me in the eye all he did was take the drink and mutter a small drink before walking away and never look back. You don't know how bad I felt for myself.

Anyway I had a guy friend trying to help me court him for a couple months and when I was at my happiest, I got the worst news ever. My crush got himself a bae. I was so upset, I didn't text my friend for weeks neither was I my usual self. And to make it worse, I found out who his bae was. It my friend. My close friend. Of course she didn't know that I liked him so I can't blame her. I was broken during that time.  Like a week later I was getting over it, trying to smile and let go. So I was sitting at the table with my friends eating lunch , joking around and having fun and out of ing nowhere, the couple both sit themselves at the same damn table where I'm at. My smile dropped as I froze. All my friends looked in my direction and gave me a sypathetic look. The air around us tensed up but I guess the ing couple were just too damn oblivious to that damn fact because they were acting all cute and stuff. I was about to drink my drink I bought to calm myself. And again out of ing nowhere my "crush" says my name and looked at me. Everyone at the table looked at him including me as if he had no head. He smiled at me. And he shouldn't have, it only made me heart beat faster for him. He got up from his seat and walked toward where I was seated. The butterflies appeared. He got behind me and bent down turning his head to the crook of my neck to see my face. He smiled sweetly again. My friends looked at him as if he were insane. I couldn't look at him I would have lost it.

Growing balls, I looked up into his eyes and asked "Do you need something?"

His smile grew. My heart beat increased. As soon as he open his mouth I thought I was about to lose it thinking he was going to say the most romantic thing ever. But boy was I wrong!!!

"Could I have your Gatorade, please?" He begged still smiling sweetly

He pulled out a stick of spearmint flavored gum . He said "I'll trade you the Gatorade for this"

My friend then looked at me. What was I about to do? They thought.

I was too nice. Too easily used. Too good to say no. Especially when it came to the person who was talking to me at that moment. My face was flushed red. I tried to bite down my obvious smile and my overly excited aura.

I gently took the gum stick out of his hand and replaced it with my gatorade. I gave it to him. I could say no, not to him. My friends looked at me like if I was stupid. I was stupid. Stupidly inlove with him. In the end he shared that drink wih his girlfriend right in front of my eyes.

But what go me the most was something else. My guy friend who was helping me try to court him told me that my crush said that he didn't know me. But he didn't even stutter or mix up my name when he wanted my gatorade. It made me dislike him.

So the feelings faded away and I'm still close friends with his bae. I have older guys trying to date me. I'm on the dance team. I'm trying out for volleyball and I'm quite known now because of my persona. Aka, my life has gotten better even without him.

Which brings me to the reason I even wrote this blog, I've fallen for another person. And I'm so inlove with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I think of him everytime I wake up until everytime before I fall asleep. He's funny, smart, and we have alot of things in common. His name is Aaron. And his birthday was yesterday. I love Aaron so much, but there are a couple problems.................................... which goes to my other reson I wrote this blog, maybe I could write a story about this? Like how I met Aaron oppa, what the problems are, how I fell for him and etc.

So what do you say? But I must warn you, this isn't a typical love story like the one I was planning on writing until my old crush broke my ing heart. This could be disturbing for some & totally romantic to others. But remember I am putting up my own personal love life experiences so not everything is going to be like K-dramas and . This is real. My story will be 100% real and Aaron oppa is ing real. And this is his actual name but it's not like I told you his full name and where he lives. It's not like he's the only guy named Aaron so I don't hear any of that bull, okay?

So.................................................. who's up for some real life romance?