Monday 23rd November 2015.

Monday has always been a very long and tiring day, considering that I am up all night during the weekends on my laptop partially explains why Mondays are tiring and just plain dull or bleak.

But today was a different experience, I had an interview concerning my future carrier it was an eye opener to say the least and it was also unexpected! Today at exactly around 9:55 am my life took a turn for the better or the worse I have no idea but the short, brief encounter with this white haired lady made me start thinking about the future.

"What am I going to be in the next decade?"..."Where will I be?"... "What do I have interest in?"... "Infact what am I personally good at?" 

All these overwhelming questions literally crushed me into ash, because the harsh reality is that I don't know where I am going, I don't know what to be and in actuality I can't see the future... This feeling ate at me through, my long dragging day well it would have if It wasn't for the guidance she kindly gave me.

The lady gave me few suggestions on what I might be in the future, It mainly consisted of voluntary, medical industry and Art industry like animator or Graphic designer and advertiser. And out of those I could not pick one or choose one and think that my life was set on stone like a book that only stops with one ending when it could end in multiples of ways in life.

Fortunately she told me with a smile that "You can always pick later you don't have to pick it now, but at least think about it." And therefore I am... thinking about it, thinking actually brings me excitement yet anxiety about my future, it makes me look forward to the future which I never really considered thinking let alone talk about.

I guess I am thankful for the guide she gave me which comes in the form of a little book, and well I feel like I have unlocked the first door in my life and I am probably hoping and expecting to unlock more! be it painful or angering, learning about myself is something I never pegged as an exciting journey until now.

Peace! - NickkyYApple