Hello~ My dear friends.....even if I don't talk to most of you....but i do see your blog posts^^.....no I'm not a stalker XD

                                                  Please read. If you want though. I'm not forcing you. But I'm confused and scared of mself.

Anyways I had this weird dream on Saturday night and when I woke up on Sunday morning it was slowly dissappearing from my mind. Weird... But so I heard dreams reflect your worries and fears or fantasies.... So this dream might be reflecting the fear I'm going through. 

                     So in the dream my 5 siblings and I were running away from the government..... My parents were gone. We had no where to go so we ran for days across the U.S from state to state. In the dream my siblings were a bit older than reality. We robbed, begged and hid to survive. The police was after us for disturbing the public and because they wanted to take us away from each other. We were savages in the dream. We stole cars to travel and it was kind of cool. We were free and we were together. But the dream ended with us being catched in a snowy state. Things went out of control and my siblings weren't fast enough and I tried to save them but we just got cornered. We were seperated from each other. My dream then fast forward a few years and we met again but it was weird being together and everyone changed from the past....... So I was freaked out when I woke up. But what scared me more was the fact it was vanishing from my memory. I usually don't forget my dreams that quick and the events in the dream began to clash together and mix up that I was getting confused. Like at this moment trying to remember it my mind says we were animals like turtles and foxes and dogs, etc....WEIRD!!! 

               Anyways that was it. Since I went to psychology, I was told that dreams reflected on our worries and fears or fantasies.So the only reason my parents won't be with us is that 1. The government took them away OR 2. They were forced to leave us by the government commands... The running away can be the fear of being apart from my siblings if the government does try to take away my parents from us. There has been numerous cases here in the U.S already for years and we are 6 in total so I bet if it does happen we would be seperated from each other. It scares me. The U.S politics are evil and disgusting. Families of my peopple are being named villians and nasty to the U.S society. I hate it. My parents people don't wish anything but a better living for their children. Their only hope to continue supporting discrimination and low jobs. I am living proof of what these people intend to do. I am one of million kids out there that are suffering the same. It's a scary world for us now. We may also be sent away by the government. I pray to God, Jesus and the Mary to protect us from the evil that threatens us. I pray for better things for my future and of my young siblings. We are not villians. We are humans. We are children who depend on our parents pain and tears to continue living in this counrty to improve our lives from our parents.....

But yeah thats my dream...... I'm scared to tell my mom. She is worried about me these years. I'm not me anymore. I get scared easily. I get hurt easily. I get sick easily. My body isn't tough anymore. I getting weaker. I'm loosing my mind tbh. I dreamt of violence will come to my family. Now this dream came. It's weird. I used to dream the future when I was young. I dreamt once that dad's friend would die the next day. I didn't know the guy, my mom didn't know the guy but I gave an exact full name and description of the guy and the next day he did die. The next prediction was of another death but know one talks about this one but I KNOW it happened.  It's weird believe me. I do believe in super natural things but where is the line I draw to divide crazy and reality if I experience these things as a child and now recently my dreams predict violence, blood, seperation, pain in the furture for my family. I'm scared of my dreams.  

It may just be me but what do you think? Am I going crazy? Why am I dreaming of death frequently these days? Is it just some other reason of my change of persona and dreams?