I Don't Know What I'm Doing Now :(

 

Wow. I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm usually the type of person who keeps my problems to myself and comfortable on writing it or just ignoring and let it pass.. sometimes i talk to my best friend about problems but right now both of us are busy dealing with life and i understand it. i can't help her either. I dont want to talk to my parents about it for i'm afraid that they will just blame me for choosing this course. Right now i can't just ignore this or else it will get worse.

I don't know if i'm depressed or just pressured because of all the requirements at school. I honestly i can do it.. i still can do it and i even have time to write fics lol... This semester is probably the hardest since i'm nearing my graduation. If everything goes right, by this time next year i would see my name on the list for graduating students... But right now it frustrates me because i feel like i'm losing my motivation. I'm trying to remind myself that i can't fail because my parents can only depend on me. I'm an only child and i can't let my life go to waste because someday i will only have myself ... But how do i keep my motivation when i'm surrounded with negativity? One thing I hate the most is hearing my name being compared to my successful cousins. I want to answer them and tell them that i'm a different person and i can be successful too. But that would be rude. I'm just talking everything and being quiet about my feelings that everyone think that I don't have problems. I used to take this as my motivation to do well and prove them wrong but what about when you hear this things everytime you do something wrong? Like even small things? It makes me question myself if I'm doing thing right. Did I choose the right thing? I've always planned to take a medical course and though i want to take it further i think i will just settle for dietitian for now. I know this is hard but the people around me makes it harder.

I can just thank super junior for making me smile everytime i feel like giving up. Listening to their songs, watching them, or just seeing a photo of them makes me forget my problems for a while... 

 

Gosshhh...  i don't know what to feel anymore... I can't even explain it. I'll just cry T.T but my feasibility study, 2 case studies are waiting..plus i need to find a research topic by the end of this week :/  

 

 

 

 

 

 

(Ang drama ko masyado lol >_<)

 

 

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Sunnab91 #1
Give up is the word I used to use during my final year but like you said, you still have time for this and that, yeah.. me too.. so you should look for new people to hang out, or new activity to keep your mind peaceful, being compare its normal, I have big family, can you imagine being compare with everyone in family include my little brother everyday?? its hurt, the best solution just ignore and try be the best in everything you do, they will stop compare one day. you no need to prove they are wrong, you know what you do is right so don't prove to other people when only you handle the pressure and stress alone. when you try to prove them wrong you will always put yourself in stress to achieve their standard while to them you never be in that standard.

Do whatever make you smile and always think positive and be positive for most of the time.
good luck for your final year.. ^.^
reokyu #2
I can sort of relate with you.. Life is tough already and I don't understand why people think it is necessary to make it more miserable>< I have so much going on too and there's just nothing I can do to stop it. So all I do is ignore and just keep moving forward..
Just keep doing what you want and don't worry about pleasing others.. You'll be fine!
Take care:)
Oh and thanks for the friend request ^^
sabilandako #3
Ate Aby! :)

First of all, I missed talking to you already. Second, please calm down and think happy thoughts (like, how adorable Ryeowook is when he's together with Kyu, or how beautiful we both look like kkk). Third, I know the feeling of being pressured and I can relate. I mean, yung kuya ko and yung ate ko parehas nasa UP Manila and parating sinasabi ng mama ko kung bakit nasa UP Diliman lang daw ako. Tapos, andami ko pang papers, exams, speeches, and reports na ginawa nung October and this November. Now look at my grades and how I'm just currently chilling. Matatapos din po iyan :DD Tapos, gusto ko rin pong kumuha ng medical course, eh kaso unlike you, di po talaga ako pumasa sa course na gusto ko sana and I'm stuck with my current course. Kaya niyo po yang course mo, ikaw pumili eh; have faith in your decisions! XD

And SuJu had been everyone's inspirations, eh? Just think of it, after the storm has passed, SuJu would be there waving at you hahah chos. Tapos isipin niyo oh, after niyo magawa lahat ng kailangan niyo, makakapagsulat na kayo ulit ng fics about Wook!~ :D

Kaya natin 'to, and ako din po madrama hahaha XDDD
alexandreaaa #4
Hi! I know na kaya mo yan! people may always throw stones at your path so just make a wall or a bridge with that. Cheer up! :) fighting! https://scontent-sea1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xtp1/v/t1.0-9/12208347_988352724539859_6850449251309895944_n.jpg?oh=891a1174d5ad7a856cb30c34f12f6877&oe=56E9F6B4
ruiarashi #5
I know you can do it!!! Please don't give up!!! Just want to let you know that last year I also have the same problem with you. Final semester of collage that need me to do a lot of paperwork and group work which is sometime really make me get a "headache", and I actually really don't like my course which also sometime or maybe always make me losing my motivation.

But I know that I should not give up that time and I hope you so~~

And yes!! thank you Super Junior!! They are really precious treasure that can make we smile a lot and forget our problems a lot right~ kekeke...just listen to them and think if they can success in their life why not us~ Frankly speaking I really thanked a lot to them because without them I think I already give up with my study.

Last but not least, please don't give up! I graduating student now and I believe you also can make it!!!! Fighting!!!
sleepingprince #6
Hang in there. Dont give up. You can do it :)
SimpleSwag #7
OMO! We have the same problem ;'(
UWAAAAA!!! T_T
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