Dear Super Junior,

Where do I even begin?

I didn't quite make an outline for this or plan what I'm about to say. This letter won't reach you and, if my some miracle it does, chances are you won't understand it. Language barriers are unfair like that, huh? It's the main reason why many people wonder how I got so hooked into KPOP. I don't speak Korean yet I listen to your songs and sing them as if I do.

I still remember the exact moment I got into KPOP because of you idiots. I was in my room, flipping through the channels in the TV, when I came across Channel V just when they were playing a song called Sorry Sorry. And I remember thinking, "What the is this?" @-) I found it so... blah that I changed the channel. But for some reason, I couldn't find anything worth watching that day and I ended up going back to Channel V. I've been familiar with East Asian pop since I discovered V6 and Arashi and, eventually, F4 but I've never heard of Korean Pop before. I became curious, so I continued watching. I saw Super Junior M's Me. I saw Miracle. Happiness. U.

And then Super Junior Happy's Pajama Party happened.

I know, it's far from being one of the best songs in Super Junior's history. But there was a specific shot there that basically hurled me into the world of KPOP.

Yup, it all started with a physical attraction. HAHAHA. But that's how attractions really begin right? So my whole KPOP journey began with me crushing on this particular member of the group. I researched right after, trying to find out his name, and soon enough I learned his name's Leeteuk. I researched more on the group and its other members but I encountered a road block. Two people I saw in the Me video weren't anywhere in the group pictures. I didn't quite get it until I later figured out that they were just guest/special/whatever members, meant to only be in Super Junior M. Didn't matter to me though. Right from the very start, I've always regarded you as 15.

Then, I began to discover just how different of a world KPOP is. It's a world where colors communicate identity, where fans have names and actually get into fights with fans of a different group, where people from all over the world meet and actually become friends. I learned then that in this world, I bleed pearl sapphire blue. I learned, too, that in this vast and usually chaotic world, home will always be the Everlasting Friends.

You guys isn't perfect. It's a common inside joke among ELFs that when asked about your image, we ask in return, "What image?" Super Junior's weird. Super Junior makes mistakes. Super Junior cries. Super Junior laughs. Super Junior mispronounces things. Super Junior isn't always good at everything but they try nonetheless. Super Junior members get into fights with each other. Super Junior can have really @_@ moments such as missing a flight because of a lotion. Many times... stupidity thy name is Super Junior. Super Junior is like me and many other people out there, despite the costumes you wear on stage and in MVs, despite the well-groomed hair and picture perfect smiles. And it's what I appreciate most about you.

The relationship between you boys and ELF is one thing no one will ever understand unless they experience it. Despite the language barrier, the distance, you've always been just there. In my happiest times, you've got a song I could listen too. I like listening to Miracle. In somber times, you've got one too, like Blue Tomorrow. When I'm pissed off or just so very damn tired, there's a song that can make me feel better.

You are so dedicated to your fans. Very sensitive to what your fans want and need. Very protective. Very loving. Very thoughtful. And I guess the most important thing is that your very willing to communicate with us. I know you love me. You don't even know me at all. I might just be a face your gaze passes by during a concert. But you love me and every other ELF out there anyway. And it shows. And we love you back too.

When Leeteuk entered the military, I literally waited for him everyday. In Twitter, I'd tweet, "Day of the long wait for @special1004", each and every single day from the day after he enlisted to the day before he returned. Each and every single day for nearly two years. I sent him letters with small origami stars in them, something I plan to do for Donghae and everyone else. And people ask me, why that amount of dedication? I couldn't explain myself. There are no words, I guess, that can explain how much I love you and how much you mean to me.

So, Super Junior, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for making me laugh, for making me cry, for making me annoyed, for making facepalm myself every so often, for pissing me off, for making me forget my problems even just for a while, for making me believe that, yes, life couldn't get better. Thank you for the friends I met through KPOP. Though we share SNSD's Choi Sooyoung as our common denominator, I 100% sure I wouldn't have gotten into KPOP at all if it weren't for you. So thank you for my them and all the memories I got to share with them because of you. Thank you for all the hard work. Thank you for sharing your talents, your creativity with us. A Super Show concert experience is beyond words. And, you know, just thank you for being there during the best and the worst and the in between.

A good chunk of the group's in the army right now. A sure sign you all are getting older. Can't quite believe that it's already ten years down the line for you (five for me). I wasn't there at the beginning but I can say with all certainty that I will love you boys for as long as I live. On your 10th year, what I wish for you is that you'll be able to get the credit that you deserve. 'Lable SJ' is a good start (I honestly think that SM misspelled 'label' as an ode to the fact that sometimes, you idiots couldn't spell to save your lives). But I wish that people will stop understimating you. I wish they'll stop ignoring everything you've done for the damn business and for the damn country. 

I wish that you all will always be healthy. I wish that you'll find partners to spend your life with, who'll add to the happiness that other things and people in life could bring. I wish that you'll always be safe. No more car accidents, please. I wish that when the worst of times come, you'll be strong and support each other.

I wish, one day, that I'll see you all on the same stage as 15, overlooking the vast sapphire blue world you've built.

I love you, Super Junior. Always. Cheers to you ten years and the rest of forever.

Bella