well, i'm not having the best days lately.

there are some things going on through my life, and even though it's minimum, i just feel like curling into a ball and cry in my room while watching netflix, drinking coffee and eating ice cream. i don't even feel that sad. it's just... i feel mostly lost. like i don't even know what i'm doing and every day is just the same. everything i liked doing now just seems 'meh' to me. i've been through this before, a lot of times, but it hadn't happened in like a year or so. i'm trying to find stability in my life once again, and i'll try to do it the right way.

so, in order to have some time to myself , i'll be distancing a little bit from aff. this doesn't mean that i'm completely leaving. i will still try to update my stories and complete my duties like commenting on the stories i'm in  and so on, just not as much and i won't be applying as often as i used to. you can balme this to me being a lazy , but lately, i'm just not in the mood for anything and my energy is limited. 

i think i really need to find my place right now. high school made a great change in my life, and even though it's been mostly positive, i have this situation going on right now, and i have no clue what to do next regarding said situation. if i tell you about this, you'll probably think it's stupid, but it's having a big impact on me right now, and i don't even know why.

i think that's all i had to say. sorry if this seems like a mess, but my mind is just as messy rn.